Wow Im beyond words
runnaway118 (11:45:21 PM): howdy
OhhShesDead (11:45:28 PM): hey sweetie!!
runnaway118 (11:46:11 PM): hpw was your day?
OhhShesDead (11:46:38 PM): awesome, your?
OhhShesDead (11:46:39 PM): yours?
runnaway118 (11:48:00 PM): yeah it was pretty good after sean came over
runnaway118 (11:48:02 PM): hehe
runnaway118 (11:48:12 PM): i heard you were stalking sam and casey
OhhShesDead (11:52:37 PM): i don't think so.
OhhShesDead (11:52:45 PM): if sam told you that, she should stop flattering herself.
runnaway118 (11:53:04 PM): carolyn i was just curious dont owrry about it
OhhShesDead (11:53:18 PM): i'm not worried.
runnaway118 (11:53:32 PM): ok then
runnaway118 (11:53:37 PM): but yeah whatever
OhhShesDead (11:53:40 PM): i saw aleshia tonight and she agrees with me that you should have had sam apologize to you...
OhhShesDead (11:53:45 PM): not easily go back to that.
runnaway118 (11:54:04 PM): ugh dont worry about it
runnaway118 (11:54:26 PM): i did it bc i wanted to stop crying
OhhShesDead (11:54:54 PM): i know.
OhhShesDead (11:54:58 PM): that makes me sad.
OhhShesDead (11:55:09 PM): you don't need her, she made you cry. and if she made you cry, why would you go back to her?
OhhShesDead (11:55:17 PM): that's what catherine's realizing finally.
runnaway118 (11:55:26 PM): im sorry
OhhShesDead (11:55:34 PM): don't be.
OhhShesDead (11:55:37 PM): it's just that i care about you.
OhhShesDead (11:55:39 PM): aleshia does too.
OhhShesDead (11:55:44 PM): we're your best friends...i don't want you to hurt.
runnaway118 (11:56:06 PM): thanks but you guys need to let me fight my own battles sometimes
runnaway118 (11:56:09 PM): im a big girl
OhhShesDead (11:56:12 PM): we will.
OhhShesDead (11:56:14 PM): we are letting you,.
runnaway118 (11:56:17 PM): and i think im now relizing that
OhhShesDead (11:56:20 PM): i just dont' agree.
runnaway118 (11:56:41 PM): i know but our differences are what makes us unique
runnaway118 (11:56:47 PM): and sadly i need sam
OhhShesDead (11:56:53 PM): you don't.
OhhShesDead (11:57:02 PM): you don't even get to see her. i mean you're not even supposed to.
runnaway118 (11:57:08 PM): i love her to death and she has all these quaities that i love
OhhShesDead (11:57:09 PM): i know how it feels to think you need her.
OhhShesDead (11:57:11 PM): i used to feel that way.
OhhShesDead (11:57:22 PM): i used to wish i were her.
runnaway118 (11:57:29 PM): i no that but carolyn she is my oldest friend
OhhShesDead (11:57:36 PM): i know...
runnaway118 (11:57:39 PM): when everyone left me she was there
OhhShesDead (11:57:48 PM): and what about when she left you?
OhhShesDead (11:57:50 PM): that's not true.
OhhShesDead (11:57:55 PM): when everyone left, IIII WAS THERE.
OhhShesDead (11:58:04 PM): i'm the only one who spent the night at your house for a while.
runnaway118 (11:58:06 PM): she stood by my side i mean at times she hurt me
OhhShesDead (11:58:08 PM): i was the only one hanging out with you.
OhhShesDead (11:58:11 PM): and you know what else?
runnaway118 (11:58:15 PM): no i mean in elementary school
OhhShesDead (11:58:21 PM): oh. ok.
runnaway118 (11:58:33 PM): like i hardly had friends at that time
runnaway118 (11:58:41 PM): when i was playing with someone it would be her
OhhShesDead (11:58:57 PM): i can see why that keeps her close to your heart.
OhhShesDead (11:59:02 PM): but she's hurt you countless times.
runnaway118 (11:59:19 PM): i know but eventually you tend to let go
runnaway118 (11:59:35 PM): our fights havnt been often lately this fight was probably the first in a while
runnaway118 (11:59:40 PM): believe it or not
runnaway118 (11:59:57 PM): if we really didnt have her mom standing in our way we would almost be inseperable
runnaway118 (12:00:36 AM): and with you i feel like we have a tight bond between eachother only thing is we dont really get around in hanging with eachother bc your like always busy
runnaway118 (12:00:41 AM): mostly with nikita
runnaway118 (12:01:10 AM): and i cant really enjoy hanging out with you when all you wanna do is see her talk to her and be with her
OhhShesDead (12:02:20 AM): shaina...open your eyes...do you see how many times you've hung out with her and she's constantly asking you to go ask amy questions or something for her? dtalking about amy or whatever constantly...
OhhShesDead (12:02:23 AM): you even said it yourself.
OhhShesDead (12:02:26 AM): you need to stand up for yourself.
OhhShesDead (12:02:28 AM): you deserve it.
OhhShesDead (12:03:03 AM): i can't think of a single mistake you've ever made...in our friendship...
OhhShesDead (12:03:06 AM): it's always me that messes it up.
OhhShesDead (12:03:36 AM): i feel a bond with you because you were my only friend the summer everyone abandoned me.
OhhShesDead (12:03:46 AM): at that time, you were the only one standing by me when i was alone.
runnaway118 (12:04:38 AM): carolyn im an outgoign person i will mostly do what my friends ask i love them and i would do whatever for them
runnaway118 (12:05:03 AM): and sadly carolyn its different i dont lik enikita sorry i tried to like her but just like its not possible for me to
OhhShesDead (12:05:22 AM): don't make me seem like the bad one. every time i stand up for you, you don't back me up and stand up for yourself.
OhhShesDead (12:05:29 AM): so i look like i don't know what i'm talking about.
OhhShesDead (12:05:55 AM): you've told me AND sam several times that it bothers you when all she talks about is amy.
OhhShesDead (12:06:02 AM): and you've also she's never given anything back.
runnaway118 (12:06:15 AM): ok this is it let me say everything and then you talk
runnaway118 (12:10:27 AM): ok first thing i know she doesnt im a giving person i hardly ever take i love my friends i will mostly do anything for them amy is over with so i dont have to worry about that and im sorry but you cant make me feel any different for sam it wont change anything about you and me and if you really love our friendship like i sure as hell do you will respect my choice even if you dont agree with it like you said when i was there when no one else was im gunna do that for her to even though she has casey and brittany but other then that she needs me i can see it and i need her each one of my friends has a certain part of me they fill and without her i would be missing one of my true feelings bc hers has become one of the biggest parts of me for we have been friends for so long
runnaway118 (12:10:37 AM): that goes for you too
runnaway118 (12:10:47 AM): you aleshia and sam complete the majority of me
runnaway118 (12:10:55 AM): i cant loose any of you
runnaway118 (12:11:02 AM): something would be missing
OhhShesDead (12:11:37 AM): yes, i understand.
OhhShesDead (12:11:47 AM): and i respect your feelings, your opinions.
OhhShesDead (12:11:52 AM): i accept it but i do not agree with it.
OhhShesDead (12:11:57 AM): i'm not trying to change your mind.
OhhShesDead (12:12:01 AM): i just want you happy.
runnaway118 (12:12:05 AM): i m
OhhShesDead (12:12:11 AM): and i think at this point...losing her would make you sadder than putting up with her.
runnaway118 (12:12:39 AM): yes
OhhShesDead (12:13:03 AM): yeah.
OhhShesDead (12:13:19 AM): and being my friend, here is my opinion:
OhhShesDead (12:13:27 AM): respect it.
runnaway118 (12:13:33 AM): ok
OhhShesDead (12:13:47 AM): sam needs you...needs you because she uses people...needs you to do her work...to do whatever she can't do.
OhhShesDead (12:13:53 AM): needs you because she's lonely.
OhhShesDead (12:14:02 AM): needs you because you're loyal and a true friend...she doesn't have many of those.
OhhShesDead (12:14:29 AM): that's why she's lonely. no matter how many people she has...she never has enough...because they aren't true.
runnaway118 (12:15:38 AM): ok
Sam I KNOW YOU DONT TALK ABOUTT HIS TO HER LEVE IT ALONE AND LET ME WORRY ABOUT BEING THERE FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS!
got it?
SHAY~SHAY.