I've been going through that too. But you shouldn't be so hard on yourself Andrea. You can still try applying to colleges, you got a pretty good SAT score, better than mine! I'm sure you could get into college somewheres. If not, you can always come move back here, and go to NOVA. Don't just tell yourself that you'll end up nowhere. You're really smart. Really you are, and you're mature in ways you don't give yourself credit for.
For me, as far as school and independance goes I don't think I'm that mature yet...only half of me is ready to go to college, if I can get in. I just don't like the fact that I have to leave the comforts of my own home, and will lose all my privacy. And I don't like the thought of parting with the rest of my friends, especially one in particular. I only want to go to college cuz I'll feel like a loser if I take time off or something, plus I'll know I'll be unhappy doing nothing while everyone else is out there starting their new college lives.
I don't think starting over is really a bad thing. It's what I want to do right now. I want to get my license and a car and move out, maybe to NC since it's cheaper to live there, and I hear there are schools with decent Japanese programs. And I don't care that yeah, I'd be running away from here. It doesn't make me any less of a person.
And I don't know if a comment made while I'm half asleep and ranting will help, but I want you to know that you're not the only person who feels that way. And I hope all that made sense. If not you can yell at me over AIM about it or something.
I always wonder if perhaps I'm the most naive/immature person on the fucking face of the planet. I think we're both okay though. Even if we're both jobless and total slobs.
Complaining on LifeJournal is sxc to the max, and I will say that your angst-driven post totally pwned mine.
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But you shouldn't be so hard on yourself Andrea.
You can still try applying to colleges, you got a pretty good SAT score, better than mine!
I'm sure you could get into college somewheres.
If not, you can always come move back here, and go to NOVA.
Don't just tell yourself that you'll end up nowhere.
You're really smart. Really you are, and you're mature in ways you don't give yourself credit for.
For me, as far as school and independance goes I don't think I'm that mature yet...only half of me is ready to go to college, if I can get in. I just don't like the fact that I have to leave the comforts of my own home, and will lose all my privacy. And I don't like the thought of parting with the rest of my friends, especially one in particular. I only want to go to college cuz I'll feel like a loser if I take time off or something, plus I'll know I'll be unhappy doing nothing while everyone else is out there starting their new college lives.
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And I don't know if a comment made while I'm half asleep and ranting will help, but I want you to know that you're not the only person who feels that way. And I hope all that made sense. If not you can yell at me over AIM about it or something.
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I always wonder if perhaps I'm the most naive/immature person on the fucking face of the planet. I think we're both okay though. Even if we're both jobless and total slobs.
Complaining on LifeJournal is sxc to the max, and I will say that your angst-driven post totally pwned mine.
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