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A Decision
I will be okay. I will be okay with this. I feel better than I ever have, only problem being fuzzy-brainedness. I can cope with that. So, I am not sharp right now. So, I can't write more than a few sentences. I will be okay. -
Still
Still feeling uncannily as if I have seen everyone before, as if they all know who I am and I just cannot place them. Or maybe that I know who they are and they don't remember me.
Wondering when this will subside. -
Mood
Mood is good. Exhausted, though. Memory problems are a bit taxing. I keep forgetting what month it is, thinking it ought to be warmer.
I have had three treatments. I go in for my next in two weeks, then there will be two more spread out over two months. -
Still
I haven't thought of dying in the last 24 hours.
BUT, the pain cannot be ignored. Can't move my neck without wincing. -
Startling
Happiness
Seeing the white in color. -
T- minus 26 hours and counting
Wondering if everything will look the same to me after tomorrow. Will the world's presently daunting leaves on the ground look like nothing more than something to rake, and will the raking seem like just something we do, not something to fear? Will the smell of fall approaching make my belly button hurt from the inside? If this works, how can ( Read more... ) -
It begins Monday
Monday, Wednesday and Friday I will show up at 11:00 a.m., change into a gown, get anesthitized, then paralyzed, then have a 30 second to one minute induced seziure. By 2:00 p.m. I will be on my way home, driven by my Dad who will have Pelham all day. He will stay with me until Ned gets home ( Read more... ) -
What happens?
"ECT has been used for more than 50 years, yet it remains one of the most controversial treatments used in psychiatry. Despite most psychiatrists advocating its use, there remains a great deal of public concern about ECT's continued use. Stopping the use of ECT in response to public pressure would deprive certain patients of a potentially effective ( Read more... ) -
This is what I have chosen to do
Today, when I told my Dr. about my recent symptoms, and my belief that they had something to do with the med combo, he put me on two more meds ( Read more... )
