thinking

[notsolckystar]

I've been having a hard time with people lately. Some of the people I lean on, want them to be happy for me, important in my life just aren't. This doesn't surprise me though, I have had a lot of really horrible people come in go in my life, so I don't have many friends, and that doesn't really bother me. I don't trust people, and don't really like

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[hielha]

I like this entry a lot. I like seeing how people think and oddly enough, I've never had a grasp on Jodi.

I identify with some of the things you say here, but I'm also a little saddened by a seeming limit on who/what you let in your life. Although your reasons why are understandable, it's not how people are supposed to be, I think. I wish you didn't feel you had to do that.

Life is FULL of hurt. It's full of horrible people, things, and places. That's what makes the good so wonderful.

I know things have been rocky in your life, but in the end, what kind of person is it making you? (That's what important) I hope you don't grow more closed, because that could push some really good things away.

And for those people who you feel aren't happy, the ones who you care for most, the "closer" ones (I'm paraphrasing from your entry)....ask them why? Put it out there. It may not be what you assume it to be.

[notsolckystar]

Oh if anyone knows that life is full of crap, it's me and had I have not moved from my small little town I don't think I would have know' that as well as I do. However, of course I'm going to close myself off.. I'm not quite pushing people away because I'm there for them and we talk and have fun... I just don't share my every feeling because with doing that I've been extremely hurt by my very best friends to families... so I just don't. I've even gone to therapists to fix things and however it was nice to let it all out, it's not something I would do repeatedly because I just don't feel it neccessary to share so much of my being.

Anyway, it's life, it's all about learning and that's what I'm doing, just happen to be hitting some very big speed bumps along the way.