Comments | notwearingawire: Things I need to say.

notwearingawire

Things I need to say.

Apr 25, 2005 17:27

This is kind of an important post. I have some things that I need to say, and people here that I hope read and understand. I'm hoping it will be cathartic for me ( Read more... )

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notwearingawire April 26 2005, 01:13:18 UTC

Hmm. As for help, I mean - I'm coming out of a long long time of repressing a lot of hurt and anxiety and not really confiding in anyone, so this is kind of a first step. I'm still going through the discovery / self-pity phase and thus I think if someone tried to tell me some hard truths, unless it was someone that I was totally sure loved me as a person, it would just make me upset for right now. Later on, though, I think I will be ready for that sort of thing ( ... )

judasforgiven April 26 2005, 02:19:28 UTC

*officially pattented and trademarked hug*

writerpo April 26 2005, 02:36:19 UTC

I was in a pretty bad place at the time. My behavior was far from golden. For that, I too am sorry. I am your friend. I will continue to be. It really is that simple.

Take care of yourself. I'll continue to ping you every now and again. You know how to reach me whenever you want to talk.

---Peter

muffster April 26 2005, 03:45:07 UTC

i have been told on many an ocasion that i am an intense person. you are not the only person that withdraws from my life when life is tough and re-emerges when you are able to talk about it. this is a common accurance in my life. i do not resent reisist or hold any kind of grudge about this at all. there was a time in my 20's when i did that with another woman, and i nearly destroyed one of my favorite friendships of all time. I learnd over the 13 years or so that i have known her, to let her come in and go out of my life as she will. to not doubt her love even when she is not near. Once, i thought the only way to love some one was to spend alot of time with them. but at this time in my life i believe and need other people in my life to believe that love is... even if you are not in a place where you can show it all the time or spend alot of time.

the short and long of it... I am here.

notwearingawire April 26 2005, 03:46:41 UTC

Just please know that I didn't only do it to you.

When I withdraw, it's usually from everyone around me.

thezim April 26 2005, 03:56:42 UTC

Feel better. And look on the bright side: when you pull away, you feel remorse about it - I feel nothing when I do it. You're a better person than I am.