today i managed to take the plunge and make a doctors appointment which im well scared of as they might think im a freak craving attention.... :((

well so i am pissed of as i am owed

today i went to work for 5 hours. ditto tomorow. unfortunatly on sunday i told someone i wouldnt cut and then i ended up doing it. grrr i hate myself right now. i thikn i will see a doctor. i hate phones though. today they asked me to speak on the tanoy system and i freaked and got someone else to do it! also i watched my video from my birthday. it ( Read more... )

i just did some of those online 'diagnosis' things..... guess what? if one i did is to be believed i am ( Read more... )

the present turned out to be video which was cool as it was from the only person outside the family who sent anything... also i got chocolate which i ate.

today i went out for a driving lesson and i have my test next week. was very annoying as my arm was aching throughout it...

Today is being quite lonely as its my birthday and all my family went shopping in the morning and my so called best friend is round some another guys house.... i got some cards through the post.. havent bothered opening them yet. I know they wll just be

Today is being quite lonely as its my birthday and all my family went shopping in the morning and my so called best friend is round some another guys house.... i got some cards through the post.. havent bothered opening them yet. I know they wll just be

Well nothing much happened today.... i went to work and came home again. Im earning all this money but i dont have anything i want to spend it on. odd... Im gonna read some of my book tonight. Its all about how christianity was adapted from pagan myths. Its quite cool if you have any interest in religion. and then i cut myself again, twice. Im not ( Read more... )

Well, today was ok. I woke up and showered and then realised just how much my arm now stings when you get soap in it :(( lol and also i shouldve used something cleaner as there is bits in it from where i sharpened pencils with it so itll proberbly go septic. Part of me wants to do it again, part of me doesnt. 1 thing though this morning I got a ( Read more... )

Hi, so this is the first entry of this journal thing which i found by accident from someone elses profile and they used it as a good way to express their feelings which is something i cannot do in the 'physical world' so i will do it here ( Read more... )