Comments | noxiousdaylight: i broke up with jherick

noxiousdaylight

i broke up with jherick

Sep 02, 2008 21:17

i can't help the fact that i'm jealous right now.
especially when i'm in such a fragile state of trying to live a sober life without anything mind altering.
i'm trying to build my self confindence from scratch, something i used to replace with getting high.

and it's not easy when i cant help the fact of comparing myself to other girls he talks to when ( Read more... )

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yoofawreeuh September 3 2008, 16:12:25 UTC

i think you did the right thing. we have to be okay with ourself before we can have a healthy relationship. not saying yours isn't because i don't really know where you guys stand but it's hard to go about this task of sobriety and worry about another person as well. it really scared me when he said that he was stoked for against me because he can drink at the bar. i don't know. i can't really tell you or anyone else what to do but the program doesn't work like that. a drug, is a drug, is a drug. you know, all in all, i just want the best for the both of you and i want you guys to be over on this side with me, enjoying life and having it all come together.

noxiousdaylight September 3 2008, 21:03:15 UTC

oh yes, i know. he dosn't take it seriously at all. he thinks NA is abstaining from hard drugs ONLY. the last two meetings he's attended he has been stoned, and i mean i tried telling him that it's really disrespectful doing that. it's a fucking joke, about how he brags about being sober like it's some sort of cover. he dosn't deserve his colors.

when i say 17 days clean i fucking mean just that.

i'm thinking about moving to bellingham soon, i've always wanted to but jherick was holding me back, practicaly from everything. i love it up there.

yoofawreeuh September 4 2008, 04:20:05 UTC

definitely not. maybe he'll get it some day and i mean, i hope he does but now is probably just not his time. my boyfriend did that whole thing. thought that he could just stop doing hard drugs but continue to drink. granted, he wasn't going to NA meetings at the time where people were telling their stories and some where along the line in the readings at the beginning it says something about thinking that alcohol is a drug.

i think you should move up here. i mean, i moved into an oxford house which was great cause it was $340 a month with everything covered (internet, cable, phone, water, electricity, etc.) i don't know if you'd be into that but come up here! i'd love to have you here.