sometimes i just hate myself.

i'm too damn sleepy. i need coffee now. strong and black. just like my men... i'm gonna miss paul so much. with erk being in mobile, and steve being in starkville, i need all the comfort i can get. and paul is by far the sweetest guy on the face of the planet. he'll always listen to you, and he dosn't just tell you what you want to hear. he ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if i'm not understanding steve just because we're so different. and if thats so, then am i just a bad girlfriend? i feel like i'm always hurting him and i don't understand how or why. things are good. don't get me wrong. we work through our lil differences but i wonder if i'm just not good enough for him. like i know he ( Read more... )

as we speak the coolest, hotest, funniest, smartest, most KICK ASSS girrl ever is on her way to see ME! thats right ladies and gentlemen. erica jerica miss america! she's only gonna chill for a lil while but thats ok. i miss her all the time and i'll take anything i can get ( Read more... )

scott you must let me know where you are. i'm very worried. :(

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this damn paper is going to make me have an anxiety attack!!!! FUCK WORK DAMNIT I HAVE NO TIME. i should just become a crack addict and never sleep...that would give me the time i missing.

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MY BOYFRIENDS COMMING TO SEE ME!! YAY! i'm so excited i could pee my pants!!!!!!!

i worry that my own internal issues will cause me to hurt the people i love. i wonder do you grow out of the confusion and self disdain and if so, when? i'm 20 now and i still feel like a child. who's child however is a whole diferent storey. anyways these are just passing thoughts that will dissapear by the end of the day.