Well, I don't know what to think. I feel just blank. I got called today to a paul-bearer (carry casket) and I told them of course without thinking twice. It is an honor to be chosen. It is going to be so hard to do this, but some things have to be done. I will be damn proud to do it. Me and my cousins are all doing it. I feel better that I will be ( Read more... )

God dammit this summer is terrible. Last night my uncle Gene died. What the hell am I supposed to do now? He helped me so much when I took care of grandma and stuff now our entire family is torn and everything is so fucked up. This is the first time I have cried in forever. God damn he helped me so much with shit. He took care of grandma with me, ( Read more... )

Today, I truly screwed up. This year, me and Paige hardly even talked at all. I was an ass for no reason. I can truly say I fucked up this year. I wish I could change the past as not to say, I wish we wouldn't have broken up, because I feel it may have been neccessary at some point. I just wish I would have made some wiser choices afterwards. It ( Read more... )