Excuse me While I Shed My Skin

[nubiansoulsista]

let me start by saying...I know I am an intelligent, compassionate, good looking, sincere, inquisitive, Black, West Indian, Woman

Comments

[mochalocks]

I feel you...It took me a while just to "be myself",I must admit,I still suffer from it.. I find myself worrying about what other might think of me,if i did this,or wore this,etc,you get the point. Even when I first,meet someone,it might take me years just to open up to them,and be myself,but some people I just instantly click with.

[nubiansoulsista]

word. i feel you on that...some people you juss really vibe with. it happens far and few between, but when it does, its something dope. and..continue to be ya fly self ;)

[mochalocks]

thanks..same to you,continue doing you're thing,don't let anyone stop you.

[mellodyus]

I have come to realize that I cant just shed all of my enculturation off. I cant completely debunk white. That some of the morals, values and beliefs I hold are never going to disappear all the way. And although its messed up and it permits you to have some distorted views of yourself I think we just need to realize that we are victims. and that we need to just begin healing our wounds. I do this by seeking beauty in others. Then that positivity reflects back to me. I never judge people anymore based on apperances. And that was hard to do. But I have found the beauty in the most unattractive people. I myself am not what many would call beautiful - i have african features - big nose, lips, nappy hair. And I learned to love it. Im not waiting around for no one else too - because I am not guaranteed anyone will.

i thank you for this entry it was beautiful and enlightening. keep on fighting and finding yourself. i know i will.

[nubiansoulsista]

I think its fly that your working on not judging others on the superficial...too much emphasis is placed on the exterior of people in this society. way too much. and I agree, we are victims and we do need to work on the healing. but I think more importantly, we need work on not living in the role of victim...having the mentality of a victim hinders you in alot of ways. While its EXTREMELY hard, I do think its possible to "debunk white", and for OUR wellbeing, we need to. We need to, like you, accept all that is us from the nose, lips, hips, hair, complextion...all the hatered of what makes us up outwardly barely scratches the surface of the selfhate that exsists within...I'm fighting the good fight with you!

[kissliss]

I absolutely loved this entry.

It's great that you're still finding yourself and haven't settled with what you are today (which I'm sure is still great). But just remember, all those flaws that we see in ourselves are barely noticeable in others. We are our worst critic. I'm sure that there are a lot of people in your life who think you're just perfect.

[nubiansoulsista]

I'm glad you could feel whats behind the words. As long as I live I will continously discovering who I am. Whats important during that process is growing in accordance with my soul, not by the standards of others, u feel me? and sometimes its hard to do that. but! its all part of the process I suppose.

[a_poetic_vindi]

i wrote something identical on my blackplanet page: http://www.members.blackplanet.com/a-poetic-vindi

amazing

kindred souls

beSos, luv & God bless