Things are so weird for me at the moment....my posts are really raw! I am doing things off line too, and still feel really weird....from the inside out....like I want to just scream, run around in circles, and then, sit down to anything off line that makes me take my mind off of my body/mind connection......wow. Crazy!
Huggles, and I hope all's well with you. Thanks for letting me post so candidly here. You are so awesome to do that! :]
Re: Life Responsenueva_albaMarch 6 2009, 11:38:24 UTC
nothing wrong with raw posts. you express how you feel, all the time. and i love that. what's the point in holding back? and if you want to scream, run around in circles and sit down to anything that will take your mind off your body and mind, then do it. i hope it makes you feel better.
i'm really scared that when i'm older i won't be able to achieve my goal - of being wealthy and happy enough to be completely dependent on myself and fine with that. purely because of society and how it's believed everyone should get married/have babies/be with someone, blahblahblah.
if that's the goal you really, really want to achieve, then you will. stuff what society believes. saying that though, the belief that everybody should settle down and start a family is so very old fashioned now. people (especially women) are more and more independent now than they were years ago. you'll manage it too, hun.
These past three months haven't been so easy. Yes, they've flown by really quickly as a whole, but independently, each week have been so slow. No friends around, no certain plans for my future, etc. etc. But I've been talking on the phone frequently with a good friend who lives in another city and she's listened to me. But then yesterday I decided I would try and make a change with the things I can. I met a friend at a cafè, I'm leaving for Paris tomorrow, I made plans for my the easter holiday with a friend, I have plans in general, and things are looking up. So I called the friend I've been talking to and told her I was smiling again, and she was kind of uninterested. So, people are only interested when you're down?
first of all, mernie, it's great that you did manage to make plans. you completely turned things around for yourself, and that's awesome. you have no idea how unbelievably jealous i am that you're off to paris. please take some of your gorgeous pictures while you're away to share with us? how long are you there for?
it's true, some people to appear more interested when they have to act as the support system. some people, to my experience, find it easier to console somebody and offer them comfort than they do to congratulate them or be happy for them. i don't quite understand it myself, but...
i'm sorry she was like that to you. maybe she just happened to have other things on her mind? if it's really bothering you, you should maybe ask her about it. just say something casually like, "you didn't really seem that bothered when i told you i was smiling again", and just see what she says.
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Huggles, and I hope all's well with you. Thanks for letting me post so candidly here. You are so awesome to do that! :]
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*huggles* things are okay, thank you.
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you'll manage it too, hun.
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it's true, some people to appear more interested when they have to act as the support system. some people, to my experience, find it easier to console somebody and offer them comfort than they do to congratulate them or be happy for them. i don't quite understand it myself, but...
i'm sorry she was like that to you. maybe she just happened to have other things on her mind? if it's really bothering you, you should maybe ask her about it. just say something casually like, "you didn't really seem that bothered when i told you i was smiling again", and just see what she says.
*huggles* love youu.
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