i fell in love with live music...especially jeff buckley. he's Beautiful. 'last goodbye' perhaps could dance in my memory forever ( Read more... )

i will admit that i had fun time. however it made me realize that i'm sick of "the scene". playing games. weaving webs. running in and out of people's lives. i need something stable. maybe this has been brought upon by watchign the brutally honest movie "Closer". i couldn't help but relate ( Read more... )

i think everyone was glowing at dinner. or maybe i was just hyperactive. when the sound level rises in a room i either want to curl up in a ball or bouce off the walls. tonight it was the latter ( Read more... )

i can sound like a real ass.
that takes work mind you.
too many thoughts not enough genuine conversation.

maybe we're all better off a little messy. mix it up a bit ( Read more... )

we're speaking to each other again. we needed that little break. now i realize how much he cares and that i really do want to keep us up no matter the status. there's only a few people out there that are worth not letting go ( Read more... )

after another sleepless night i can across this. think about it...

Creation seems to come out of imperfection. It seems to come out of a striving and a frustration, and this is where I think language came from. It came from our desire to transcend our isolation and have some sort of connection with one another. And it had to be easy when it was ( Read more... )

well i'm back at Rensselaer. break went by so fast. me and sarah stayed at kristy's house. the only work we got done was catching up on our sleep. the first night we went out, came back the next morning and took a 5 hour nap. i got to meet kristy's high school friends, see her town and whatnot. ahh and i finally got to drink again (it had been 3wks ( Read more... )

it's the weather that has me. you know this cold winter is here. slowly tiptoed snow. upon you before you have the chance to escape. i feel as if my repressions crack me in the face. it's all lovely bullshit only works when believed. more complex as always. emotions not linear. neglected with vain ambition. there's a void i ignore. it consumes ( Read more... )

awh damn it! i finally saw the film i was supposed to see ages ago. donnie darko. i'm utterly disappointed. the whole worm hole space time continuum deal was my idea. well not exactly but i was going to make it art. the challenge still awaits. wahhh crazy thoughts. time is not linear and eventually things will spring back upon themselves thus ( Read more... )