well over this now. looking like i'll be moving up in the kitchen again but so disinterested it's not funny. there's a general sense of dissatisfaction in the kitchen and lots of people are leaving again. we'll see how things go and what is to come. weather's shitty again.
i am many things here i am not at home. nice to see the other side. learning lots. evaluating cost of things. monetary and otherwise. want to hide from people's eyes finished being stupid. currently feeling like shit. guess i deserve it.
i want to go swimming in the little lake on the way to squamish. the feelings of summer lodged back in my chest. and the vibrations of the road coming through the pedals. the sunsets on the way home. and a carful of people singing to whatever happened to be on.