MEME THINGIE
I was going to do a dropping meme. And then I thought about it and I was like "Wow, I wouldn't actually . . . drop . . . a single character of mine right now, NO ONE is in any danger AT ALL." And that's a pretty awesome feeling. XD BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE RAMBLING and I'm taking a break from Devit's relationship meme and I still have an essay meme to do but whatever, I feel like doing State of the Union shit. So we doin' this. This will be OOC and IC SotU stuff and I'll try to be . . . concise . . . but uh. You guys all know my tendencies, right?
Hasegawa Chisame | Posted: 23,914
IC: Chisame is Chisame. She's been here so long that I have no idea what could faze her anymore. I think like, Mello ever getting reapped or Negi being apped or Chizuru dropping are the only three things that would seriously affect her at this point. Her three-year anniversary is in a few days! And her mindset has sort of settled into "All I can do is wait." And she's kinda come to terms with that! And almost pities people who haven't. XD She doesn't LOVE camp, she's not afraid of leaving camp, she does want to go home, but it's not a burning desire or anything, she no longer emos over it and she no longer believes she has even a modicum of control over when it happens. NEW CLASSMATES ARE SHOWING UP which does have her sort of Wondering if something is about to go down, namely Negi showing up since it seems like the White Wings are gathering. And that WOULD fuck with her a little, not in a bad way but it would make her take notice. XD BUT UH OVERALL. Chisame at this point, after three years of having swung all across the board in terms of mindset, has settled rather firmly into her canon mindset during the current chapters, and it would take a lot to shake that.
OOC: As close as I've come to dropping her several times, I can safely say now that IT AIN'T HAPPENING. She's getting tons of new canon, the series is great right now, she's easy, she's fun, she can be thrown at a lot of things, she is surprisingly easy to form new connections with for an anti-social, three-year-old character. The fact that she's become fairly static in her characterization in camp actually does NOT make her boring to play! I worried that it might, but it doesn't, because canon is constantly developing her character and her in-camp character develops with it and it's a blast. And she is just, you know. My flagship character. XD I play her without even realizing how much I play her. She has relationships and can form new ones, and her tsuntsuntsun is a blast because I love playing the spazzy, secretly crazy straightman. SHE IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
Plans/Goals: Nothing in particular. Meet more people, get used to her new icons, do more Negima Cast Things, pimp for more Negima cast. Also I want her to bug Ed more because I like their interaction and they've both been here forever now. XD
Miura Haru | Posted: 7,559
IC: Haru has CHANGED QUITE A BIT in camp. Well, she's still the same Haru! Her basic personality is still the same. But her relationships with her castmates have evolved in a way that I'd like to think is IC and natural. It does affect her IC. Right now, Haru is in a pretty good place, IC. She's had emo and freakouts and all that about some relationship developments and she's still VERY FUCKING CONFUSED by it all, but part of her development has been coming to terms with the fact that she's changing and has changed over the past 8 months, and she's doing better with that now! So her overall state of mind at the moment is pretty positive, full of worry for her stupid mafia boys and still awkward about all the things Haru GETS awkward about, but positive. She's happy in camp. Homesick of course, but it's better than the future lolol.
OOC: I love Haru and am pretty confident in my characterization, even though she HAS changed. And change does make me nervous, but I think, HOPE I'm doing all right with it, because it pretty much had to happen. In canon she's very spazzy and sexually repressed and naive, and in camp she STILL IS, but she's also learned a lot while she's been here about the mafia and about people, especially her canonmates. And that has affected her and opened the door to new relationships and Feeeeeeeeelings. I don't want those relationships to be OOC, but they make sense to me, so I feel all right, and I trust my canonmates to kick my ass if I'm NOT all right.
I JUST NEED TO STOP FORGETTING ABOUT HER. XD Haru is . . . I adore playing her and she's easy for me! It's just that with the Reborn cast being so big and so active, I have always fallen into this trap of like. Something Happens, I play her for 150 comments with canonmates, and then I want to play someone else, and I realized later that she only threaded with her Group that week. And I don't like that! I need to break out of that. Because she's such a great character and I was so much better at this when I got her, so I know I can do it. Still, she's in no danger of dropping either. I think I'm good with her, I just need to DO MORE HARU STUFF as opposed to more--Reborn Stuff.
Plans/Goals: GET HER OUT MORE away from castmates. But also with castmates |D Also. Haru Appreciation Day, DO IT AGAIN. And learning Italian with Chrome. And maybe the Homo Trap Mark III with Kazu. And the sleepover with Fuura!
Yamazaki Kaoru | Posted: 1,625
IC: Yamazaki is a complicated character. He is actually probably the most complex character I have, along with Devit. His thoughts on camp run much deeper than they seem to and are really . . . twisted up and confused, and so is his emotional state. He is both very happy and very unhappy with it all the time. Which is sort of how he is in canon anyway; Yamazaki can be very mood-swingy. XD
Yamazaki has a pretty good life in camp. He's not under any pressure, he is making friends, he's having a lot of good game ideas, he doesn't get his ass kicked, it's like taking a break from his family and obligations and everything with no real consequences! Which thrills him! But the fact is that fiction leaking into reality upsets Yamazaki IMMENSELY. As awesome as it is to meet Ayanami Rei and Chii? Yeah, that makes him happy as hell. But also . . . not. It's not something he ever expected and while he may have thought he wanted it, it's . . . being an otaku, it's complicated for him. He has to make a conscious effort to treat fictional people as people, and sometimes he's more successful than other times. And then people that he's successfully begun to treat as Real, like Rabi? He starts to forget that they . . . are fictional! And then something happens to remind him and it hurts, badly. Because Yamazaki thinks of his world as pretty shitty, being the Real World and all, but at least he doesn't have fucking Noah and Akuma to deal with, and he's one very weak normal human man. So it's like, your friend got maimed by a Noah, what the fuck do you say? How can you possibly reconcile your fanboying of a series with the REALITY of this horrible shit REALLY HAPPENING to people, and how can you claim to relate to someone who's been through all that? These things are fictional! They shouldn't be real, moe shouldn't be real, there is no fiction in camp to escape into because like if he goes and picks up Evangelion or something it's just, ASUKA IS HERE and she's A PERSON that all this shit REALLY HAPPENED TO and it's absolutely horrible to take pleasure in it when he sees her in the mess hall every day.
There is nothing in camp to escape into but reality itself, and the fact that it's a little easier for him to DO that here than at home is the only thing that keeps him sane, really. XD It's just this tradeoff of "I have to give up some of the way I've been shielding myself from society for years and I have to pick up another shield, and this new shield involves trusting people and I'm not so good at that but I have nothing else left." So. Yeah, IC, Yamazaki is a little . . . he tries as hard as he can to maintain as much of his old life as he can. But cracks appear, and he gets depressed and introspective, the way he does. Overall though, he's . . . Okay! Because Yamazaki is Okay no matter what life throws at him, despite his binges of self-destruction and depression. That's the point of NHK. XD
OOC: DO YOU SEE HOW FUCKING LONG THAT WAS? T-that is why I'm not dropping Yamazaki despite his low-ish activity. XD Honestly, I . . . love Yamazaki a lot and I can essay about him almost endlessly. I don't play him as much as I should, and he came close to getting the boot around the new year. And I do get nervous about him moreso than a lot of my characters BECAUSE he is so complex. I realize that the way he comes off is . . . he comes off in such DIFFERENT ways depending on his mood that I worry it's never right. He can do threads that are pure manic cruel otaku, and he can do threads that are wounded, Jesusy quiet introspection and fear, and they're both things he DOES in canon, it's all a part of his character. But I worry that it comes off wrong, probably because I don't truly play him enough for people to get a feel for exactly how complex and fucked up he is inside. I know that based on my app and a lot of my play people get the impression that NHK is a crack canon when it's not; it IS full of stupid, ridiculous, HILARIOUS crack, but it's also full of angst and psychological problems and people on the downward spiral into the fringes of society. And I worry a LOT about swinging Yamazaki too far in either direction.
Really I just need to play him more so that . . . people can feel him better, I think. Because I can feel him! As evidenced by my crazy essaying. XD I know how he is and why and what he's going through and why. I just don't do him enough justice to make that entirely clear in camp. But still. No droppy Yamazaki. NO.
Plans/Goals: Redo his icons. Co-post with Viper. Finally do that post I was asking around for artists for. Do more with the H-game. WHORE FOR A SATOU. RIGHT NAO.
Viper | Posted: 3,229
IC: Ho boy. Viper is . . . conflicted about camp. The thing is, he's conflicted on a very laid-back, ho-hum-whatever scale, because that's how Viper rolls; things don't bother him much, he's a patient and fairly secure person. He has been in worse situations than camp, for much longer periods of time. He is bothered by some of what's happening in camp to him and to others, but he's bothered in a clinical, detached way--most of the time. He makes note of trends that he sees and some of them are troublesome, but they don't stress him out to a great extent. He just files it away and wonders how things are going to progress.
This is what he sees: he sees Varia splintering slowly, he sees himself unconsciously detaching himself from them and falling back in with different crowds both old and new, he sees himself being forcibly loosened up by people who seem to care about him, he sees himself enjoying it more than he should. He sees himself doomed to not making any profit nor any progress on the curse. These things are all a bother. They irritate him and set him on edge. But at the same time, there's a certain feeling of relief that comes with several of them. DESPITE THESE THINGS (and because of them) he is . . . content. Ish. In camp. He's able to recognize these things and he has confidence in himself that they're not going to progress to the point where he becomes . . . well, Reborn or Colonello, totally laid-back and shameless and chill with the curse and LAZY. He is NOT GOING TO LET THAT HAPPEN and so chilling a LITTLE in camp is totally okay rly. There are times when that control slips slightly and he lets himself get into mindsets that he considers "dangerous," but again . . . he's a grown man (lolol) and he has a lot of fucked up mafia life experience and he knows how to deal with himself, mostly. There is frustration and confusion involved in some of his feelings but he's been living with that for who knows how many years! And he can handle it. So in camp, in general? He's fine. It's a curiosity with both pros and cons and in that sense it's not terribly different from any other place in any world. And he enjoys some of his relationships immensely, even if he's all tsuntsun about it. |<
OOC: I JUST KINDA . . . DON'T WORRY ABOUT VIPER. I mean. XD I know the chances that I'm gonna get Jossed. But I do what I do with what I have of canon, in the full knowledge that someday, EVENTUALLY, he is going to get a shitload more of it, but that I might have to wait a year. It's a precarious position! But I think that I can play with what I have, or I wouldn't have apped him, and Amano is good at consistent characterization. Her characters DEVELOP but they remain the same characters. There's a lot about him that we don't know but the hints that we get are very telling and I just kinda roll with it, and if I get Jossed I'll see what I can do to fix it, but I am less worried about it than I should be, probably. XD I do worry slightly because I know that my headcanon for him is not GENERAL FANDOM HEADCANON, insofar as that exists, which isn't much because he's not hot (yet). I don't obsess over the money thing as much as most players/writers do because I'd like to think that it's . . . apparent? In his entire mindset, not just because I throw random money-related cliches into his comments, and I think that makes him a more interesting character as well as more fun and easier to play. But I hope I haven't left it too much by the wayside. XD
All in all he's minor and he has this backstory we don't KNOW yet and Arcobaleno canon is fucked up and! I realize completely that the Viper I play is very much MY Viper. But I think he's extrapolated and characterized enough from the canon of him we HAVE that he's not an unrecognizable OC. And when we get more canon I do have a strong suspicion that it's not going to contradict me in any major ways, because Amano is a GOOD WRITER. XD And yeah. He's fun to play, he's become relatively easy, and I am not dropping him ever. He could even survive pretty much all of his canonmates leaving, although I hope he will never have to.
Plans/Goals: Co-post with Yamazaki. More horrible baby stuff because we are bad people. Thread more with the main branch and other castmates. PROFIT!
Shiina Sakurako | Posted: 1,455
IC: Sakurako is my least complex character. What you see with her is what you get! And what you see is :DDD! And that's basically how she feels. XD She's so. ORDINARY. She's a normal cheerleader, she's afraid of the zombies and weird camp shit but it's soooooo cool omg there are talking animals and cute things and it's America it's exciting and my friends are here and cute guys are here and I kinda miss home I hope Negi-kun comes soon oh look a kitty! This is the extent of it, honestly. I kinda love her for that.
OOC: Sakurako is eaaaaaasy. I should get her out more but I'm not always in the mindset, but she doesn't even take that much energy. She's just such a normal and simple person. XD And so cute and retarded. Cutetarded! I never even--had to "break her in" in camp, it was like she came pre-broken, and I don't worry about her voice or characterization, she's just REALLY HARD TO FUCK UP because she's so minor and normal and silly. She was extremely active for a time when I got her and is less so now and I should get her activity back up there because she's stupid fun. I would drop her if I became overloaded in my character set or if I apped another character who conflicted with her activity, but not otherwise.
Plans/Goals: More Negima cast antics, more stupid random jumping and annoying people, more raping, more horrible cheerleader antics. SPORTS STUFF THIS SUMMER?
Shirley Fennes | Posted: 580
IC: Shirley is . . . in some ways she's a very simple person. And she's a very zen person. She misses home, and she missed Senel a lot. But this is her second time here, and she's zen. She isn't afraid of what's happening, she knows about the timefuckery. She knows she'll get out eventually and her friends will be safe and she'll tell them everything and everything will be okay. So she's fine in camp, and she doesn't LIKE all aspects of it, of course, and she gets lonely, but . . . she's all right, and she enjoys some of it. She loves meeting people and learning things and helping however she can, and she wonders if maybe she was brought back because she needs to do some more of that, so she's going to make the best of the situation and give it a try. She enjoys it. She likes the feeling of connecting and growing and learning.
OOC: I am really cool with Shirley. She is . . . she's kind of the opposite of Chisame in that I feel like I play her more than I do. XD I can't believe her comment count is so low because I really like playing her and I do it every week. She's just sort of BACKBURNER and I'm okay with that, because Shirley is from the end of the game and she's the most "finished" of my characters; she is not going to change significantly or learn major things about herself or have any freakouts. That's what 80 hours of canon was FOR. XD But she doesn't bore me, either . . . I love her a lot, I love everything about her character and she's very easy for me to play, and I always have a lot of fun when I do, even if it's a quiet, mild, Jesusy dork fun. She's my backburnery Jesus that I really love and do not plan on dropping again because I adore her and I need one really nice, calm, well-adapted chick. \o/
Plans/Goals: Anon confessions post, sometime. Whore for Legendia cast \o/ Meet more people. Talk more to other Tales casts, especially Symphonia people.
Devit | Posted: 3,078
IC: UHHH . . . TALK ABOUT COMPLICATED. Devit is. Crazy! And he moodswings a ton, and he's totally ruled by the moment, his emotions. So, like Yamazaki, he feels both really good and really bad about camp pretty much simultaneously all the time. Camp SUCKS because he's trapped here but it's cool because there's cool stuff but it SUCKS because exorcists are here but it's cool because people seem to like him okay but it SUCKS because the humans have powers and get all cocky with him but it's cool because people don't die but it SUCKS because people don't die but it's--
And so on. There is really no way to answer this for him. It changes by the SECOND. Jasdero is here now--before that, his overall impression could never be anything but negative, even when he was happy and having fun! But now Jasdevi is together again and there is the possibility of being content in camp. Is he content in camp RIGHT THIS SECOND? I-I don't know, I can't answer that. XD There is way too much going on in his fucked up head, and I understand it all to the same extent he does, which = NOT ENTIRELY. He both hates and kinda loves camp. It just coexists. This is the case with most of Devit's feelings on ANYTHING and it's no different for camp. His feelings on camp depend entirely on what's happening to him and who he's talking to at that exact second.
But positive/negative associations aside, he is beginning to adjust. He recognizes that things are not . . . as they were back home. And he has new situations and feelings to deal with, which is annoying (but cool, but sucks, but is awesome--).
OOC: . . . lol
I started phasing Tomo out in, I dunno, January or February or so, because I knew it was getting to be That Time and that she wouldn't last the summer. Sano and I had decided to drop before counselors. Since that time, I haven't had a Primary character, and have been playing everyone in a fairly balanced fashion, except for those that I eventually dropped! My most-played character changed by the week; for awhile I thought Viper might take the slot, but I was uncomfortable with that because I don't want to like, DEVELOP HIM INTENSIVELY before we get Arco canon. That was what happened to Chisame when I first got into this game, after all.
I didn't really EXPECT to get a new primary that I favored to the extent that I once favored Tomo! The round I apped Devit, I only read the canon like . . . a week and a half? Before apps opened. I hadn't been planning on apping that round really, I was going to wait for counselors and pick up a counselor who would be very likely new primary material. And then I talked to Aviy and then I read D.Gray-man and then I WENT A LITTLE CRAZY, APPARENTLY.
3,000 comments later he is still actually only a month-old character, so while I feel I've uh, SETTLED, to say the least, I am still nervous and paranoid about him. I mean, I feel like I Get It with him, but Noahs are easy to fuck up and I don't want to do that, and it's still only been a month and I'm still working into things to an extent. I see a lot of fandom Devit that I do not agree with at all and I want to think my interpretation is a good one, but if it's not, or if it is and it's just not coming OFF in my play, I want to have time to fix it before 3,000 comments becomes 10,000 comments. I REALLY HOPE PEOPLE LIKE WHAT I AM DOING because apparently I am doing a lot of it! WHOOPS!
So yes, he is easy to play and I can't get enough of it and I hope he's easy because I'm doing it RIGHT and not because I'm doing it WRONG. If this is not the case. Tell me. Because basically you can all pry him out of my cold dead hands and I still occasionally go like "Man when are they gonna take him away from me? OH RIGHT HAHAHAH, NEVER, SUCK IT, HE'S MINE!"
Plans/Goals: ENJOY EVERYTHING
Hasegawa Chisame | Posted: 23,914
IC: Chisame is Chisame. She's been here so long that I have no idea what could faze her anymore. I think like, Mello ever getting reapped or Negi being apped or Chizuru dropping are the only three things that would seriously affect her at this point. Her three-year anniversary is in a few days! And her mindset has sort of settled into "All I can do is wait." And she's kinda come to terms with that! And almost pities people who haven't. XD She doesn't LOVE camp, she's not afraid of leaving camp, she does want to go home, but it's not a burning desire or anything, she no longer emos over it and she no longer believes she has even a modicum of control over when it happens. NEW CLASSMATES ARE SHOWING UP which does have her sort of Wondering if something is about to go down, namely Negi showing up since it seems like the White Wings are gathering. And that WOULD fuck with her a little, not in a bad way but it would make her take notice. XD BUT UH OVERALL. Chisame at this point, after three years of having swung all across the board in terms of mindset, has settled rather firmly into her canon mindset during the current chapters, and it would take a lot to shake that.
OOC: As close as I've come to dropping her several times, I can safely say now that IT AIN'T HAPPENING. She's getting tons of new canon, the series is great right now, she's easy, she's fun, she can be thrown at a lot of things, she is surprisingly easy to form new connections with for an anti-social, three-year-old character. The fact that she's become fairly static in her characterization in camp actually does NOT make her boring to play! I worried that it might, but it doesn't, because canon is constantly developing her character and her in-camp character develops with it and it's a blast. And she is just, you know. My flagship character. XD I play her without even realizing how much I play her. She has relationships and can form new ones, and her tsuntsuntsun is a blast because I love playing the spazzy, secretly crazy straightman. SHE IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
Plans/Goals: Nothing in particular. Meet more people, get used to her new icons, do more Negima Cast Things, pimp for more Negima cast. Also I want her to bug Ed more because I like their interaction and they've both been here forever now. XD
Miura Haru | Posted: 7,559
IC: Haru has CHANGED QUITE A BIT in camp. Well, she's still the same Haru! Her basic personality is still the same. But her relationships with her castmates have evolved in a way that I'd like to think is IC and natural. It does affect her IC. Right now, Haru is in a pretty good place, IC. She's had emo and freakouts and all that about some relationship developments and she's still VERY FUCKING CONFUSED by it all, but part of her development has been coming to terms with the fact that she's changing and has changed over the past 8 months, and she's doing better with that now! So her overall state of mind at the moment is pretty positive, full of worry for her stupid mafia boys and still awkward about all the things Haru GETS awkward about, but positive. She's happy in camp. Homesick of course, but it's better than the future lolol.
OOC: I love Haru and am pretty confident in my characterization, even though she HAS changed. And change does make me nervous, but I think, HOPE I'm doing all right with it, because it pretty much had to happen. In canon she's very spazzy and sexually repressed and naive, and in camp she STILL IS, but she's also learned a lot while she's been here about the mafia and about people, especially her canonmates. And that has affected her and opened the door to new relationships and Feeeeeeeeelings. I don't want those relationships to be OOC, but they make sense to me, so I feel all right, and I trust my canonmates to kick my ass if I'm NOT all right.
I JUST NEED TO STOP FORGETTING ABOUT HER. XD Haru is . . . I adore playing her and she's easy for me! It's just that with the Reborn cast being so big and so active, I have always fallen into this trap of like. Something Happens, I play her for 150 comments with canonmates, and then I want to play someone else, and I realized later that she only threaded with her Group that week. And I don't like that! I need to break out of that. Because she's such a great character and I was so much better at this when I got her, so I know I can do it. Still, she's in no danger of dropping either. I think I'm good with her, I just need to DO MORE HARU STUFF as opposed to more--Reborn Stuff.
Plans/Goals: GET HER OUT MORE away from castmates. But also with castmates |D Also. Haru Appreciation Day, DO IT AGAIN. And learning Italian with Chrome. And maybe the Homo Trap Mark III with Kazu. And the sleepover with Fuura!
Yamazaki Kaoru | Posted: 1,625
IC: Yamazaki is a complicated character. He is actually probably the most complex character I have, along with Devit. His thoughts on camp run much deeper than they seem to and are really . . . twisted up and confused, and so is his emotional state. He is both very happy and very unhappy with it all the time. Which is sort of how he is in canon anyway; Yamazaki can be very mood-swingy. XD
Yamazaki has a pretty good life in camp. He's not under any pressure, he is making friends, he's having a lot of good game ideas, he doesn't get his ass kicked, it's like taking a break from his family and obligations and everything with no real consequences! Which thrills him! But the fact is that fiction leaking into reality upsets Yamazaki IMMENSELY. As awesome as it is to meet Ayanami Rei and Chii? Yeah, that makes him happy as hell. But also . . . not. It's not something he ever expected and while he may have thought he wanted it, it's . . . being an otaku, it's complicated for him. He has to make a conscious effort to treat fictional people as people, and sometimes he's more successful than other times. And then people that he's successfully begun to treat as Real, like Rabi? He starts to forget that they . . . are fictional! And then something happens to remind him and it hurts, badly. Because Yamazaki thinks of his world as pretty shitty, being the Real World and all, but at least he doesn't have fucking Noah and Akuma to deal with, and he's one very weak normal human man. So it's like, your friend got maimed by a Noah, what the fuck do you say? How can you possibly reconcile your fanboying of a series with the REALITY of this horrible shit REALLY HAPPENING to people, and how can you claim to relate to someone who's been through all that? These things are fictional! They shouldn't be real, moe shouldn't be real, there is no fiction in camp to escape into because like if he goes and picks up Evangelion or something it's just, ASUKA IS HERE and she's A PERSON that all this shit REALLY HAPPENED TO and it's absolutely horrible to take pleasure in it when he sees her in the mess hall every day.
There is nothing in camp to escape into but reality itself, and the fact that it's a little easier for him to DO that here than at home is the only thing that keeps him sane, really. XD It's just this tradeoff of "I have to give up some of the way I've been shielding myself from society for years and I have to pick up another shield, and this new shield involves trusting people and I'm not so good at that but I have nothing else left." So. Yeah, IC, Yamazaki is a little . . . he tries as hard as he can to maintain as much of his old life as he can. But cracks appear, and he gets depressed and introspective, the way he does. Overall though, he's . . . Okay! Because Yamazaki is Okay no matter what life throws at him, despite his binges of self-destruction and depression. That's the point of NHK. XD
OOC: DO YOU SEE HOW FUCKING LONG THAT WAS? T-that is why I'm not dropping Yamazaki despite his low-ish activity. XD Honestly, I . . . love Yamazaki a lot and I can essay about him almost endlessly. I don't play him as much as I should, and he came close to getting the boot around the new year. And I do get nervous about him moreso than a lot of my characters BECAUSE he is so complex. I realize that the way he comes off is . . . he comes off in such DIFFERENT ways depending on his mood that I worry it's never right. He can do threads that are pure manic cruel otaku, and he can do threads that are wounded, Jesusy quiet introspection and fear, and they're both things he DOES in canon, it's all a part of his character. But I worry that it comes off wrong, probably because I don't truly play him enough for people to get a feel for exactly how complex and fucked up he is inside. I know that based on my app and a lot of my play people get the impression that NHK is a crack canon when it's not; it IS full of stupid, ridiculous, HILARIOUS crack, but it's also full of angst and psychological problems and people on the downward spiral into the fringes of society. And I worry a LOT about swinging Yamazaki too far in either direction.
Really I just need to play him more so that . . . people can feel him better, I think. Because I can feel him! As evidenced by my crazy essaying. XD I know how he is and why and what he's going through and why. I just don't do him enough justice to make that entirely clear in camp. But still. No droppy Yamazaki. NO.
Plans/Goals: Redo his icons. Co-post with Viper. Finally do that post I was asking around for artists for. Do more with the H-game. WHORE FOR A SATOU. RIGHT NAO.
Viper | Posted: 3,229
IC: Ho boy. Viper is . . . conflicted about camp. The thing is, he's conflicted on a very laid-back, ho-hum-whatever scale, because that's how Viper rolls; things don't bother him much, he's a patient and fairly secure person. He has been in worse situations than camp, for much longer periods of time. He is bothered by some of what's happening in camp to him and to others, but he's bothered in a clinical, detached way--most of the time. He makes note of trends that he sees and some of them are troublesome, but they don't stress him out to a great extent. He just files it away and wonders how things are going to progress.
This is what he sees: he sees Varia splintering slowly, he sees himself unconsciously detaching himself from them and falling back in with different crowds both old and new, he sees himself being forcibly loosened up by people who seem to care about him, he sees himself enjoying it more than he should. He sees himself doomed to not making any profit nor any progress on the curse. These things are all a bother. They irritate him and set him on edge. But at the same time, there's a certain feeling of relief that comes with several of them. DESPITE THESE THINGS (and because of them) he is . . . content. Ish. In camp. He's able to recognize these things and he has confidence in himself that they're not going to progress to the point where he becomes . . . well, Reborn or Colonello, totally laid-back and shameless and chill with the curse and LAZY. He is NOT GOING TO LET THAT HAPPEN and so chilling a LITTLE in camp is totally okay rly. There are times when that control slips slightly and he lets himself get into mindsets that he considers "dangerous," but again . . . he's a grown man (lolol) and he has a lot of fucked up mafia life experience and he knows how to deal with himself, mostly. There is frustration and confusion involved in some of his feelings but he's been living with that for who knows how many years! And he can handle it. So in camp, in general? He's fine. It's a curiosity with both pros and cons and in that sense it's not terribly different from any other place in any world. And he enjoys some of his relationships immensely, even if he's all tsuntsun about it. |<
OOC: I JUST KINDA . . . DON'T WORRY ABOUT VIPER. I mean. XD I know the chances that I'm gonna get Jossed. But I do what I do with what I have of canon, in the full knowledge that someday, EVENTUALLY, he is going to get a shitload more of it, but that I might have to wait a year. It's a precarious position! But I think that I can play with what I have, or I wouldn't have apped him, and Amano is good at consistent characterization. Her characters DEVELOP but they remain the same characters. There's a lot about him that we don't know but the hints that we get are very telling and I just kinda roll with it, and if I get Jossed I'll see what I can do to fix it, but I am less worried about it than I should be, probably. XD I do worry slightly because I know that my headcanon for him is not GENERAL FANDOM HEADCANON, insofar as that exists, which isn't much because he's not hot (yet). I don't obsess over the money thing as much as most players/writers do because I'd like to think that it's . . . apparent? In his entire mindset, not just because I throw random money-related cliches into his comments, and I think that makes him a more interesting character as well as more fun and easier to play. But I hope I haven't left it too much by the wayside. XD
All in all he's minor and he has this backstory we don't KNOW yet and Arcobaleno canon is fucked up and! I realize completely that the Viper I play is very much MY Viper. But I think he's extrapolated and characterized enough from the canon of him we HAVE that he's not an unrecognizable OC. And when we get more canon I do have a strong suspicion that it's not going to contradict me in any major ways, because Amano is a GOOD WRITER. XD And yeah. He's fun to play, he's become relatively easy, and I am not dropping him ever. He could even survive pretty much all of his canonmates leaving, although I hope he will never have to.
Plans/Goals: Co-post with Yamazaki. More horrible baby stuff because we are bad people. Thread more with the main branch and other castmates. PROFIT!
Shiina Sakurako | Posted: 1,455
IC: Sakurako is my least complex character. What you see with her is what you get! And what you see is :DDD! And that's basically how she feels. XD She's so. ORDINARY. She's a normal cheerleader, she's afraid of the zombies and weird camp shit but it's soooooo cool omg there are talking animals and cute things and it's America it's exciting and my friends are here and cute guys are here and I kinda miss home I hope Negi-kun comes soon oh look a kitty! This is the extent of it, honestly. I kinda love her for that.
OOC: Sakurako is eaaaaaasy. I should get her out more but I'm not always in the mindset, but she doesn't even take that much energy. She's just such a normal and simple person. XD And so cute and retarded. Cutetarded! I never even--had to "break her in" in camp, it was like she came pre-broken, and I don't worry about her voice or characterization, she's just REALLY HARD TO FUCK UP because she's so minor and normal and silly. She was extremely active for a time when I got her and is less so now and I should get her activity back up there because she's stupid fun. I would drop her if I became overloaded in my character set or if I apped another character who conflicted with her activity, but not otherwise.
Plans/Goals: More Negima cast antics, more stupid random jumping and annoying people, more raping, more horrible cheerleader antics. SPORTS STUFF THIS SUMMER?
Shirley Fennes | Posted: 580
IC: Shirley is . . . in some ways she's a very simple person. And she's a very zen person. She misses home, and she missed Senel a lot. But this is her second time here, and she's zen. She isn't afraid of what's happening, she knows about the timefuckery. She knows she'll get out eventually and her friends will be safe and she'll tell them everything and everything will be okay. So she's fine in camp, and she doesn't LIKE all aspects of it, of course, and she gets lonely, but . . . she's all right, and she enjoys some of it. She loves meeting people and learning things and helping however she can, and she wonders if maybe she was brought back because she needs to do some more of that, so she's going to make the best of the situation and give it a try. She enjoys it. She likes the feeling of connecting and growing and learning.
OOC: I am really cool with Shirley. She is . . . she's kind of the opposite of Chisame in that I feel like I play her more than I do. XD I can't believe her comment count is so low because I really like playing her and I do it every week. She's just sort of BACKBURNER and I'm okay with that, because Shirley is from the end of the game and she's the most "finished" of my characters; she is not going to change significantly or learn major things about herself or have any freakouts. That's what 80 hours of canon was FOR. XD But she doesn't bore me, either . . . I love her a lot, I love everything about her character and she's very easy for me to play, and I always have a lot of fun when I do, even if it's a quiet, mild, Jesusy dork fun. She's my backburnery Jesus that I really love and do not plan on dropping again because I adore her and I need one really nice, calm, well-adapted chick. \o/
Plans/Goals: Anon confessions post, sometime. Whore for Legendia cast \o/ Meet more people. Talk more to other Tales casts, especially Symphonia people.
Devit | Posted: 3,078
IC: UHHH . . . TALK ABOUT COMPLICATED. Devit is. Crazy! And he moodswings a ton, and he's totally ruled by the moment, his emotions. So, like Yamazaki, he feels both really good and really bad about camp pretty much simultaneously all the time. Camp SUCKS because he's trapped here but it's cool because there's cool stuff but it SUCKS because exorcists are here but it's cool because people seem to like him okay but it SUCKS because the humans have powers and get all cocky with him but it's cool because people don't die but it SUCKS because people don't die but it's--
And so on. There is really no way to answer this for him. It changes by the SECOND. Jasdero is here now--before that, his overall impression could never be anything but negative, even when he was happy and having fun! But now Jasdevi is together again and there is the possibility of being content in camp. Is he content in camp RIGHT THIS SECOND? I-I don't know, I can't answer that. XD There is way too much going on in his fucked up head, and I understand it all to the same extent he does, which = NOT ENTIRELY. He both hates and kinda loves camp. It just coexists. This is the case with most of Devit's feelings on ANYTHING and it's no different for camp. His feelings on camp depend entirely on what's happening to him and who he's talking to at that exact second.
But positive/negative associations aside, he is beginning to adjust. He recognizes that things are not . . . as they were back home. And he has new situations and feelings to deal with, which is annoying (but cool, but sucks, but is awesome--).
OOC: . . . lol
I started phasing Tomo out in, I dunno, January or February or so, because I knew it was getting to be That Time and that she wouldn't last the summer. Sano and I had decided to drop before counselors. Since that time, I haven't had a Primary character, and have been playing everyone in a fairly balanced fashion, except for those that I eventually dropped! My most-played character changed by the week; for awhile I thought Viper might take the slot, but I was uncomfortable with that because I don't want to like, DEVELOP HIM INTENSIVELY before we get Arco canon. That was what happened to Chisame when I first got into this game, after all.
I didn't really EXPECT to get a new primary that I favored to the extent that I once favored Tomo! The round I apped Devit, I only read the canon like . . . a week and a half? Before apps opened. I hadn't been planning on apping that round really, I was going to wait for counselors and pick up a counselor who would be very likely new primary material. And then I talked to Aviy and then I read D.Gray-man and then I WENT A LITTLE CRAZY, APPARENTLY.
3,000 comments later he is still actually only a month-old character, so while I feel I've uh, SETTLED, to say the least, I am still nervous and paranoid about him. I mean, I feel like I Get It with him, but Noahs are easy to fuck up and I don't want to do that, and it's still only been a month and I'm still working into things to an extent. I see a lot of fandom Devit that I do not agree with at all and I want to think my interpretation is a good one, but if it's not, or if it is and it's just not coming OFF in my play, I want to have time to fix it before 3,000 comments becomes 10,000 comments. I REALLY HOPE PEOPLE LIKE WHAT I AM DOING because apparently I am doing a lot of it! WHOOPS!
So yes, he is easy to play and I can't get enough of it and I hope he's easy because I'm doing it RIGHT and not because I'm doing it WRONG. If this is not the case. Tell me. Because basically you can all pry him out of my cold dead hands and I still occasionally go like "Man when are they gonna take him away from me? OH RIGHT HAHAHAH, NEVER, SUCK IT, HE'S MINE!"
Plans/Goals: ENJOY EVERYTHING