Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder

[numbontheinside]

Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Why do I feel the way I do right now? I don't understand it, it's like nothing I've ever felt before. It doesn't feel specifically good or bad so it could be either but I really just don't know.

I almost want to just let myself spiral out of control again and let it be the end

Comments

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[filthee_soul]

The only burden you are, is to yourself. I always was willing to listen and it was not merely to be nice. And she (the girl below me) is also willing to listen as well and from what I gather not because she pities you, not because she's being nice. People think your a good person under these thoughts, these delusions as i'd like to call them. They want to be there for you; not because thy're trying to get niceness points but because they actually give two shits about you and your issues. You pick apart yourself so much and so often that sometimes I worry your losing grip of what is real and what is merely loathing delusions. Ill say this again and again with every single post I read of yours similar to his until you actually realize it and act upon it, im here if you need anything, someone to talk, someone to sit in silence with, someone to ramble on about the meaning of life to or the sometimes lack thereof, etc etc etc. Point is, I'm here even if i cant be where you are and even if we sorta lost the friendship we had, whether you