Juncest
Title: Juncest
Pairing: Junbros
Summary: Pg-13 (just to be safe)
Summary: Somewhere along the lines, Junsu falls in love with his adopted brother
Junsu is two when his parents have a baby. He won't remember anything about the the first two years of his life and he'll never remember life without his new baby brother, not that Junsu would want to. 'You'll be the best of friends' his mother tells him' One arm craddling the baby and the other curled around Junsu's shoulders. He snuggles a little closer and she shifts the baby in her arms, giving him a clearer view of his cherub faced baby brother. The baby is cute and one day they'll both be big and tall like their parents and their kids will play together too. That's another thing his mother tells him.
He's five when he learns he's adopted. He doesn't really understand what that means or what that has to do with him or his family but apparently that's why his baby brother, Junho, looks like their parents and he doesn't. Junsu has a long face and dark eyes. His lashes are long and his hair is much finer, lighter than his little brother's. Junho has a smaller, rounder face and thick dark curls. His eyes are tiny in comparrison to his thick lips. Junsu wonders if that's why the teachers look at him with an odd expression when he does something really good, and sometimes when he does something a little naughty too.
When Junsu is eight the other kids start to bully him. They tell him his real family didn't love him, that he's too ugly and too naughty. Junsu sniffs back the tears and is about to push Changmin when Junho runs up to them. Junho growls at Changmin and Kwon, making claws with his hands. 'That doesn't matter' He shouts, balling his tiny hands into fists before dropping them to his side. 'He's my Hyung and Umma and Appa love him' He glares at the two older boys who stare back at him in shock before grabbing Junsu's arm. Junsu follows Junho to the other side of the playground where they sit beside a tree. 'Don't worry, Hyung. I'll always love you' Junho grins with his ever famous eyesmile and presses his lips to Junsu's cheek.
By the time Junsu is twelve it's safe to say they're best friends as their mother predicted. Junho follows Junsu like a lost puppy and spends more time in his hyung's bedroom than his own. Sometimes when she puts the new baby down she has time to worry about them, considers that her two sons are a little too close. It never lasts long because the baby doesn't sleep for long and when she does, three year old Jinchul needs attention. It's better to have two sons that get along and help out than two terrors that cause even more mayhem.
When Junsu is fifteen and Junho is thirteen, the two suddenly stop talking. Junsu spends most nights out with friends or singing in his bedroom whilst Junho takes to playing video games and joins club after club till he finally settles into dancing. Junho busies himself by playing with the babies at meal times and Junsu spends so much time listening to his Ipod that their mother wonders if he's had the headphones surgically attached. This weird amnosity spans for weeks and eventually turns into months and years. One day seven year-old Jinchul glances at his Hyungs, brows knitted in confusion. 'Umma, did Hyungs fight?' Mrs Lee doesn't know what to say and it's Junsu, who's sat closest to Jinchul that replies. 'Don't be silly, Chul-ah. Of course not' He reaches out and ruffles the boy's thick curls with a forced, gummy smile. Everyone pretends not to notice as Junho knocks his chair over when he leaves the table.
Shortly after Junho's sixteenth birthday, Junsu announces he's leaving home. Their mother cries, completely bewildered by his sudden decision and their father remains silent in comparrison. Junho leaves the room again and doesn't appear for the rest of the day so Jinchul and Jaewon, now ten and seven, make the best of their eldest hyung's attention. Junsu crawl's into Junho's bed that night, arms curling around his dongsaeng's waist and Junho instinctively melts into his arms. Junho's hands curl around Junsu's wrists as he feels Junsu's lips press to his nape and he keeps the older boy close till they both fall asleep. He wakes up the next morning to an empty bed and Jaewon's tears.
Junho is nineteen the first time he visit's Junsu's apartment alone. He's on his way to Chansung's house when he realises that two left turns and a right will take him to his Hyung's apartment, a little over five minutes away. He pauses at the corner of his street and wonders for a moment if the guys will miss him for half an hour. His feet are already pulling him towards the second left turn before he truly makes his mind up but it's too late to back out now. Junsu welcomes him inside, a friendly arm tight around his shoulders as the younger male steps inside. Junsu visits home at least once a month and they're finally on speaking terms again. Junho pulls out the six pack of beer and Junsu hesitantly acepts the bottle handed to him.
Junho is nineteen when Junsu finally accepts their feelings for each other. They're brothers and it's wrong, not blood brothers, granted, but incest is incest and Junsu has been trying to avoid his feelings, avoid this. Junho's eyes shine with a hurt that make Junsu ache and feel guilty deep in the bottom of his heart. Junho sets his bottle down, barely touched, and presses his hands to the sides of Junsu's face. Junsu lets his eyes fall closed and takes a deep breath that fills his lungs and rattles his ribs because his heart is beating too fast in his chest and he feels as though every millilitre of blood is rushing to the skin beneath Junho's palms. He lets out a strangled moan before Junho even has a chance to kiss him and it only spurs Junho to kiss him that much harder. They melt into each other, Junho's arms wrapping tightly around his elder brother's neck.
By the time Junsu turns twenty-two, Junho spends more time at his apartment than he does at home. Their father thinks it's because the children at home are too much of a distraction from Junho's studies because Jinchul always wants to play soccer, tennis or basketball and Jaewon dances around the house, belting JYP's honey into a hairbrush-microphone at the top of her lungs. Mrs Lee is happy that her two eldest boys are close again, but now the babies of the family are growing up and she's got more time to think, to worry, to reflect. Junho spends increasingly more and more time at his brother's apartment and soon Junsu's monthly visits become Junho and Junsu's monthly visits.
Junho is twenty-one and Junsu is twenty-three when Mrs Lee asks the question that could ruin their family for ever. Junho is in the living room with their father and the children, singing 2NE1's fire with Jaewon- the budding idol, whilst Junsu helps their mother in the kitchen. She's been glancing at him with a curious expression for the last half hour and he can't help but chuckle to himself when she finally asks the question that's been on her tongue, whilst he's holding a knife. 'You love him, don't you?' Junsu carries on slicing carrots for a few moments before he puts his hands on the chopping board. Gripping the edges, he nods and waits. 'I always thought you two were little too close. I blamed myself, I thought I couldn't have children so we adopted you, then Junho came along, and the babies, and before I knew it there just wasn't enough time for...' Mrs Lee swipes the first few tears with the back of her hand and Junsu isn't sure whether he should comfort her or not. 'Does he love you back?' There's something fiery in his mother's eyes that makes Junsu's jaw hang for a moment, compells him to tell her that yes, her eldest son really does love her adopted son. The song his siblings are squawking finishes and changes to SHINee's Amigo. Jinchul's 'Cold eyes baby!' is off pitch and heavily accented and Mrs Lee lets out a small laugh as Jaewon screams that he's not singing it right. Junho appears in the doorway, instantly gravitating towards Junsu. His head lands on his brother's shoulder, hands going to his hips and Junsu stiffens, knowing their mother is watching like a hawk. She steps closer, and pulls both boys to her chest, presses her lips to Junsu's forehead and strokes Junho's hair. 'I love the both of you. Just don't get caught, ok?' She presses her lips to Junho's forehead as she pulls away and makes her way to the living room to give them a few minutes peace. Junho's eyes are impossibly wide as Junsu turns in his arms and pulls him in for a kiss. 'She knows' Is all he says before he pushes Junho towards the fridge and goes back to chopping carrots.
On Junsu's 24th birthday they buy a house together that's closer to home with two storeys, a red roof and a white fence around the front garden. Jaewon asks on her first visit, when she's inspecting their bedroom why there's only one bed. Junho blushes, face resembling a tomato and body suddenly cold as ice but Junsu slings a friendly arm around his shoulders and pulls his brother to his side. 'It's just cheaper that way' He ruffles Jaewon's hair and she regards them for a moment with raised eyebrows and Junho can almost see the cogs working inside that pretty little head of hers when she finally nods, accepting the answer. 'Plus..' Junsu adds with a grin as he throws the thirteen year old over his shoulder 'It means we have a spare room for our adorable little sister to stay in whenever she wants' Junho laughs at her squeal of delight and she's quickly back on the ground, out of the door and inspecting the spare bedrooms before they have chance to say anything more. Junho pulls Junsu closer, fingers hooking his belt loops and the elder of the two presses their lips together with a quiet sigh. 'That was some quick thinking there, Junsu, but next time you might want to shut the door before you start making out.. otherwise, you know, she'll find out' They break apart in time to see Jinchul's suggestive wink as he pulls the bedroom door shut.
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Notes:
Dedicated to CayCessendra who's the lucky birthday girl today ^_^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!