Hibiscus Leads a Process into Sex

[nuria_asha]

It was Wednesday, September 7th, 2016. One full year ago I had climbed around naked on Hibiscus's grape trellis, naked. I delighted in the hot feeling of sun coating my body as I gathered seedless, concord grapes. I'd never had grapes anything like them prior to meeting Hibiscus.
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Now, a year later, I was sworn off grapes until Friday, as they

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If I may

[ext_3816498]

Something that may give line-of-sight to your quandary is that you are a specialist, and one born from need. In your areas of specialty you may not only be often unmatched, but others will likely do things which are quite unseemly. For myself, there are two major points which are of help to me here. First, that the people have less of a need, interest and desire in the topic and as such it plays a less pertinent role. Second, that just as I am specialized here and have my own knowledge, I have my own ignorance and conflicts, and they their own specialization. I do not often forgive per say, but I do not take offense out of people acting out their own ignorance, just as I do every day in everything I do. It can be hard to act in accord with a logic or rule, which has yet to be part of you.
I am glad you recognized and gave form to your feelings. I think there may be more in seeing why it is so offensive and why you are so hurt with the treatment people have for their bodies, than to try to shunt the world to this perspective.

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[nuria_asha]

I've learned not to care what people eat when they are not mine; to take the responsibility of the world off my shoulders. It is harder with those that I have vowed to cherish, protect, and fall back in love with over and over again.

Also, it is scary to think of Hibiscus weathering himself away, aging himself as quickly as he can, and leaving this world so long before I do. I'll be the one holding his hand in a hospital bedroom someday. It isn't a pretty thought.

Besides that, there is also that I wouldn't want someone to let me pollute myself. I'd want someone to interrupt me and ask me to look deeper for what I really want. I want to be inspired and pulled toward my greatest potential, so to those I care for most, it seems only right that I do my best to pull and inspire them.

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[ext_3816498]

Man I wish that were the case

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[nuria_asha]

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