So You'll Aim Towards the Sky
I was really a bad robot yesterday. I went out to the annual PILA fundraiser event for CUNY Law students. I got drunk and then let my friends talk me into going out with them afterwards, and totally forgot to take care of myself. I danced and even accepted a way-too-sexy lap dance. And the story only got worse form there. Way too drunk! bad news! And this is coming from the girl who until today hadn't even walked to the bank or the corner store. I have barely returned a phone call in weeks (thinking of you, truegrit ). I can't even walk without waddling.
And yeah, so I broke another stitch.
I have a tea date tonight with a guy I randomly met on the internet while writing the huge paper I handed in on thursday. I want to go meet him but i am so sick and tired. I am worried about the wound reopening. eh. I think i am going to go on the date though because it's probably my only shot.
But this does have me thinking. I mean, it may actually be a good time to start taking care of myself. I am not taking any medications besides the antibiotic for the post-op, which i will stop in three days. This is a first for me in almost 3 years. I even ran out of the snake oils i use for my hair. My foundation and powder compact have both run out. Everything feels so raw. In a few weeks I will resume HRT, and I think now is the perfect time to start new practices. Like drinking less. Like avoiding unnecessary drugs & chemicals. Like thinking about my diet in a sustainable way. Maybe even i will start to sleep like a normal human.
My teacher and I had a conference last week, and she advised me to start thinking about the tasks and projects in m life as things i WANT to do, rather than things i HAVE to do or do merely because i feel strongly about them. She also reminded me that I need to make sure I am in touch with the things i am good at or disposed towards. These thoughts left me strategizing about how to be intentional about my mental well-being in practicing the law as well.
I want to be a good robot.