Death

[nutmegalomaniac]

It's the ultimate white elephant in the room. I think people only remain sane by never thinking that they'll eventually be dead. Because, really, it's a very unsettling thing to consider that you'll one day no longer be a part of everything you've ever known. And there's no saying how it will happen. In traffic tomorrow morning, an unexpected

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[pandora81]

BIG HUG...Mark, I dunno if you read my blogs at all, but I suffer from thantophobia, which is an obsession and horrific fear of death and whatnot...i see a therapist actually...who has helped in ways...i am so there with you...the things you were thinking about today are what I think about before I go to bed at night...it's a bad obessive habit to break.

facing death is the healthy way to go...and I don't know how...I immerse myself in the 5 W's about the event of my death..and sometimes other peoples..and then there are the ones who as you put it perfectly, keep sane by ignoring it and/or pretending it will never come to them. which is foolish becuase it is inescapable. I cannot tell you to be afraid, cuz then I'd be a big fat hyopcrite. I can only advise you to have faith....

or maybe you do read my blog and this is a big mockery of me? LOL

take care

[nutmegalomaniac]

In no way was this post mocking you. As a wise man in a movie said, "I'm a Bastard but I'm not a Fucking Bastard."

I'm not obsessed with death. It's just that in the struggle of good thoughts and bad thoughts that everybody deals with, death (the ultimate bad thought) seems to get blocked out. Yet it's a threat that never really goes away. And I understand why this selective thought is necessary. I think about death sometimes (in some ways it might help my productivity.) But I see why it's also beneficial not to.

I hope you're doing ok.

[pandora81]

oh my goodness I KNOW you werent mocking me I was just throwing in a little comic relief...i just thought it was sort of a...bonding moment when I read your post and I felt compelled to share with you.

the therapy sessions in combination with my faith are good and the nighttime is worse..but that's just a wierd part of it....andrea and I had brunch today and spoke of you we wondered how you were and commented it seemed you were doing very well for yourself, based on your posts:D

[findsalome]

Sending hugs. I have the same thoughts sometimes... They increased in frequency with my 25th birthday. I think they can be really good, if you don't let them paralyze you.

[nutmegalomaniac]

Yeah. It may be my mind's way of reminding me I've been here for a quarter-century.

[honeybee17]

i feel you on this..

[littlegirltoast]

I got two songs about precisely this.

spit and blood

[littlegirltoast]

mark your acting like a little nova scotian she-boy! Stare death in the eyes and say "fuck your stupid"
you need to get out and do something dangerous.
you better not start making tipical nova scotian films that are depressing and about death and peggys cove.
love yea...im mean Fuck yeah.
J

Re: spit and blood

[nutmegalomaniac]

Actually, that sounds a lot like a movie I'm working on. It's about these two gay heroin addicts who live at Peggy's Cove. They really hate it there, and keep waiting for one of their uncles to pick them up in a boat so he can bring them to a better life in PEI. They've made a suicide pact: If the boat doesn't get there by New Year's, they will both kill themselves. They're doing a lot of heroin on New Year's Eve, when one of them ODs and dies. Moments later, the uncle's boat arrives to save them. The other gay man sees the rescue boat, but doesn't want to go on living with his companion dead. He kills himself by purposely smashing his head against the rocks. The name of the movie is HEROIN ADDICTS AT PEGGY'S COVE.

[nutmegalomaniac]

What are the songs called?