Back At the School Thing

[nuttmeg]

So I am back from Camp Mason and in Clarion again. I'm in the middle of week two of classes and I feel like life is returning to normal.... well, as normal as normal is around here. :) My girls are amazing. I am so glad to be back with them, doing the stay up all night and grunble on the way to class thing while secretly we still think it was the

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[anonymous]

He will speak to you. He probably would like some sort of an apology, and not to be treated... in the manner that you have. He, nor anyone deserves that... and possibly the worst part is that you've been in that same position before. Shitty.

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[nuttmeg]

I have never been where you are now. But I will tell you that I am sorry about how things happened. I am sorry about how many things happened this summer, but I am personally tired of trying to be the best for everyone. I tried so hard for things to be ok with us, but I just can't any more. I can't pretend at all. It kills me, drains me, and no one should ever spend as much time as I do trying to make other people happy. I feel like you know me enough to understand at least a little bit, but knowing you, knowing people, nothing that I can say will make you feel any better. Please believe that I wanted nothing more than for things to be good with us. If i had seen what was going to happen, I would never have even approached you because I never ever wanted to hurt you. You've been through shit. Shitty, fucking terrible, whatever. I have been too. And I don't want to do it any more, nor do i want to be the reason that other people feel that way. It was better for things to have worked out the way they did than for things to be drawn out