My God what a week...

And that's really all I have to say.

I keep dreaming about this funeral. Friday night I dreamt I went and it was in a big huge place, with a chapel and a reception area and everyone was running around getting things set up. I was waiting for Heather and trying to be helpful while trying to avoid his friends. I went into one room and saw Zoe, she was wearing all yellow. I left that ( Read more... )

So is it so wrong if, coming home alone at 1:30am, I don't want to let in the shady dude loitering outside my building, who can't even move to let me get to where I can buzz in b/c he's too busy leering at my tits? Uh yeah, you obviously don't have keys, and maybe I'd give you the benefit of the doubt if you weren't so busy leering. I wasn't as ( Read more... )

It's so amazing to actually have honest discussions with Chet. Amazing and yet difficult, in many ways it makes me love him a lot more, and realize how strangely alike we are. I guess I can't accurately explain this and I realize that most people must think I'm out of my mind. I'm so so so so SO happy that he's thinking about things and working ( Read more... )

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I read this Anais Nin quote today - "Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes one feel as you might when a drowning man holds unto you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic ( Read more... )

Well I talked a good game and as much as I wanted to convince myself I was, I'm just not over the boy and I really do miss him. On top of that he really is trying... like really trying... like taking alone time to sort things out trying and he never did that before. But I still don't know what I want. He does make me really happy... but then ( Read more... )

Here's what went down last night... the fire trucks et al were still around when I finally drifted off at 6am. But at least I had a place to drift off at and wasn't forced out of my home...

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This is shaping up to be a bizarre night ( Read more... )

I finally got the place cleaned and put back together and I love it. It turned out so good. Yeah, I still have some touch-ups to do and trim to finish but I'm happy with it. And it looks so much bigger now, b/c it's been so messy for so long. My little kitty is definitely a happier girl now that her house is clean, she's been running around and ( Read more... )