The last two days have really been rough. Tensions high, feelings easily offended, lots of over reactions. Mostly on my part. My undiagnosed but obviously existent mental disease has really had me on edge lately, and I have taken it out on her. I hate that about myself, because she deserves so much better. And I am not a nice person at all ( Read more... )

A sickening day yesterday.  To say the least.

The magistrate rescheduled Monica's final divorce hearing again.  This time for the 29th of July.  If it is made final then, after the 20 day wait for it to process, it will leave us with about 10 days to get a marriage license for our wedding.  If this fucking thing gets postponed one more time...... ( Read more... )

I talk to myself sometimes. It's the way I process things that confuse me, or intimidate me, or anger me, or thrill me. I have to talk myself through emotional situations, else my brain short circuits. I'm socially awkward. I like to tell myself that it's because I'm so incredibly intelligent that my mind doesn't grasp normal social cues. I'm sure ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning feeling a little depressed.  Three of my four kids are visiting their "other parents" in other states, and that just added to an already diminished sense of worth in my own abilities as a father.  I feel like I am one of the most selfish people alive, and my kids suffer as a result.  Sadly, I know what it's like growing up ( Read more... )

Countdowns dominated my life 2 years ago ( Read more... )

So, in the continuing saga of how much Southwest Airlines suck ( Read more... )

Yesterday was one of the most frustrating days in the history of life ( Read more... )

In a couple of days, our household will shrink by 50% for seven weeks ( Read more... )

When I asked this woman to marry me almost 2 years ago, I assumed it was going to be a quick, easy, painless process that we wrapped up nice and neat, and then went on to the more important things of life, like the "honeymoon".

Well, as most of you know, life had other things in store for Monica and me. We received the news that we were going to be ( Read more... )

Exhaustion, more powerful than the 5 hours of sleep afforded me last night, and threatening to burn the bridge between consciousness and coma.  This fucking cold doesn't help ... and since I am not accustomed to being sick, it makes it all the more difficult to persevere.  I just want to crawl into bed, flip on the ID channel, and sleep next to my ( Read more... )