another cry for help, or attention, or whatever.

[nycheezecake]

i sat at home today and read an entire fucking book about the L.A. riots. some 250ish pages. christ thats alot of pages, and although it was quite interesting, it was also quite depresing. it left me all day to pretty much sit at home and dwell. mom and dad were gone hunting, the cat was sleeping, no music, no tv, no phone calls, no one on the

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[tesknota]

dude, we all need help. Don't fucking sweat it man, confusion is half the battle in life. If it were easy and spelled out for us, there would be no challenge. You's and I's, we be people of extreme ups and downs, but don't view yourself in the context of others. View you as you would want to be viewed, from your eye. If you think other people are gonna get upset at you for speaking yourself out, then FUCK EM! At least you communicate which is a fuck of a lot more than I or a lot of other people do. Besides, you can use this downward slope to fuel art. Some of the best shit I write is when I'm either pissed, confused, or something of that nature. Besides if this is the down, just imagine how rad the up will be. Just wait for it, it'll be there soon enough when you quit looking.

[nycheezecake]

thank you alex. today was better than yesterday, and i thought looking back maybe this entry was a little too much, i dunno, i feel it all but it comes and goes. i know im depressed and.......yeah, fuck it. but thank you alex, very much.

[tesknota]

well ya know, these feelings come and go in spurts, but it definitely helps to jot them down. Don't worry about the intensity.