Weirdest dream last night...woke up in hysterical tears at 4 AM...I don't know why I'm fine when I'm awake and then I fall asleep and apparently all that goes to the shitter...Tis just so weird. Anyway...I'm not gonna think about it ( Read more... )

FUCK LIFE!! FUCK HIM! I'M DONE!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you, Jenn, for everything! I should have listened to you from the beginning. Next time...I'll know to listen! I'm sorry for being such a bitch about everything the end of last year...I need to learn that people like that aren't worth my time...Miss you! Can't wait for you to come home so we ( Read more... )

Must come to an end? Okay...so...I guess I have to deal with this. As much as I don't want to...I dunno...I guess I don't know why I'm making this so difficult. It's not like we ever "had anything." Well, I guess we did. It's just so hard because I know that when I think of my senior year, the most vivid memories are going to be the ones we ( Read more... )

When you let your guard down??? Remind me to never do that again...It hurts like a bitch! I just want to feel what I did last April...that "I'm so happy I'm going to grin like an idiot constantly" feeling. Where did that go??? Sad thing is...it's still inside of me...wanting to break free. I'm just afraid to let it go again...afraid to get ( Read more... )

Well...four days in my new apt. Things are getting unpacked and situated and whatnot...tis weird...I dunno...I mean...I've been doing my NYCB workout at like 11:00 every night...lol There's no one below me to get angry at me for jumping around...haha weird ( Read more... )

I officially have all my keys...first months rent is paid...lease is signed...security dep. paid. :-D And I move in Friday!!!! :-D I must say...I'm gonna miss having cats... :-( LOL Bubba is playing on my bed...hehe totally cute...I will DEFINITELY miss it ( Read more... )

w00t!!!!!! I found an apartment today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D SOOO excited! It's BIG and it's got a REAL kitchen and not just some little pretend thing...And cheap cheap! :-D Planning a move in next week ( Read more... )

Wow...another one of those days...it actually was going pretty well. Went to the studio early this morning to work out cause I skipped class yesterday...I mean, no, it didn't feel great and I definitely did something to my ankle, but it probably would have happened anyway...Then, I came home, showered and went to the theater for rehearsal which ( Read more... )

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A REALLLY REALLY REEEALLY good class!!!! It was fun, I'm feeling more in shape again...and...I dunno...it was just good ( Read more... )

Spent about 5 hours in a car this morning/afternoon...Was highly entertaining...Took a journey back to pre-teen years and put in...yes, I admit it...my old backstreet boys cds...(yep...plural...I know, I know! LOL) Haha...still remembered every word. :-) kinda sad, I know...Made me remember the concert I went to when I was probably 14. LOL I ( Read more... )