Its official..im fucked. One nite out with Jenn turns into a nite of living hell. 1 AM..here we are..sittin on the beach..drinkin a few beers..chatting away. Nothing could go wrong..but yet i was so paranoid. I sat with the DD and chatted away..gettin to kno him..while jenn and another were down in the sand..talking..whatever. One beer...i quit..so ( Read more... )

things have perked up..if i must say so myself ( Read more... )

not much to say..im speechless. i walk around  school acting like nothing bothers me. when i hear the laufs..see the snickers..what more can i do? but sit here and take it. i feel so helpless..like a lost person trying to find the best way to escape things. but it never seems to help..all the advice..everything..none of it helps.

i truley wish ( Read more... )

I make some dumb choices i swear. I guess when ur in the heat of things..u say anything that will make u "more appealing" to that person. I never thought'd id see him again..or ever talk to him..i guess i was wrong. The feelings for him are un-believable. The sound of his voice..the very thought of him..its great. He puts the biggest smile on my ( Read more... )

*clears throat*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TARA..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..AND MANYYY MOOOOORE!!!

Happy birthday girl..the big 1-5..now u only got one more year till u can get ur permitt..<3333

James is comming to visit me this summer..i cant wait =P

I finally meet a guy i think is perfect for me..and i have to leave him. Never in my life have i been on a river-boat ride..and had some1 give me a penny..and tell me to make a wish. The littlest things get to me..show me just an inkling that he's interested. Like his "wish"..it was the best wish..and he was right..if u dont tell any1..ur wishes ( Read more... )

Florida was fuckin awsum!!! staying up all nite..4 AM massage's..cuddling with Crystal..butt ass naked..double showers..and the best part of all..James.. =P

You know, for a period of time there were times when i sat there and wondered..what things woulda been like if things had *actually* worked out..but now..its all different. I look at life in a totally different way..thnx to him. He was a jerk..the biggest of all time..shit..even bigger than jeremy..*whoa nelly* i see him in the halls..kissin on her ( Read more... )

Florida: TODAY!!!

welp..@ 7:30 tonite we will be on our way to Orlando for a friggin AWSUM time...*ahh* cant wait..the bus trip..the movies..the talks with my girls.. *smile*

anyways..due to constant partying i havent had time to update this thing ( Read more... )