Life, or something like it....

[nyght_childe]

I want to scream. I want to weep. I want to rage. But most of all, methinks, I want to take leave of my senses, memories, hopes, dreams, and fears. To have it all washed away in sweet, unending oblivion. I think that if I was actually a nihilist, I would spend this summer and winter studying, practicing, and learning woodscraft and survival skills

Comments

[soul_shark]

My tears fall for you. This is both happy and sad news. I love children, so I see happiness in this situation, regardless of how hesitant you feel towards being a father. But I see how sticky the situation is... You are doing the right thing.
Love your daughter, and her mother, as much as you can, because they need it. Dont let her words hold you back, its an emotional time.
Cheer up my friend =), god has a purpose for everything. This is a test. And with all your apparent failures in school, I think this is your chance to prove yourself, show your worth, somewhere where it actually counts.

Danke

[nyght_childe]

Thank you so much. It is odd: I never thought that encouraging words could mean so much to me, but they do. I do not think there has ever been a time in my life where they have meant more. Thank you so much, my sweet.

...wow...don't I feel speshul

[nyght_childe]

Okay, so apparently they did not delete my account. I merely failed to remember exactly how I had spelled it. I only tried 8-10 combinations...

So now I am back on my old account (will be deleting the new one, as it is now redundant. I am soooo happy that I found it. I was very sad when I thought it was gone, and I had lost everything in it. But yayness triumphs this time!

Ok, so you wanted an update on everything? You are right. It will take a long time. However, I am not going to attempt to do it in a comment/message. I will post updates. I now have intranet at my home again, and there really is no excuse to not be on it more frequently (though I think the Mylo's days of living in cyberspace are over for good...)

I do not know how long it will take me to finish the updates, but I plan on doing a brief synopsis of my time since I left LeTourneau. So bear with me, but it WILL happen, this time.

Love ya hun. I have missed you muchly.

Your Yank,
MYLO

[euphoria318]

I'm glad you're writing again, i think it might be a good and much needed means of expression and release. You're in a really daunting position, you know that, and unfortunately that fact wont change anything. I think you're doing the right thing, with all the aspects in your life. just keep praying and acting, its the best you can do =) we're all here for you