Self Appreciation
SO,
for those who dont know.. i coach womens roller derby... and i would say lately that 95% of the time it is responsible for the lust of projectile weapons... mainly because i beat myself up when i fail to motivate people to do what i want them to do... but today for the first time in a long time for a (brief) moment i was outwardly giddy with glee about training...
i have had alot of moments in the last few weeks where i debated the value of being involved, second guessing my own commitment, and searching for a reason to walk away from the whole thing for no specific reason other than i feel like my efforts have exceeded thier ability to improve the situation.... yet in an instant, when no one else is paying attention and likely going un-noticed outside of myself, weeks of frustration end with a single moment of self clarity... i honestly doubt anyone other than myself was even aware of it, but i felt successful because the team was successful... its funny how quickly things can turn around when you can appreciate your own efforts due of the efforts of others... in other words, it never matters how much others appreciate you and your work, until you can appreciate it yourself via the success of those you influence... if that doesnt make sense, hopefully one day it will...
its just that i realized that when the girls do put in work that exceeds my expectations, they are better than i thought they could be, and its rewarding and exciting to see people excited about the work they put in and the results they get from it... every now and then you need that to keep on going...
and in other news...
i love all sorts of music yet when i turn on pandora, i can never decide what to listen to... so today i chose this as a seed... for your listening pleasure.. (and if i did it right it should already be playing)courtesy of this
Song of the Day
The Police - Message in a Bottle