Journal Entry- May 3rd, 2000- 1:00am
Things have calmed down, considerably, which is a good thing- definitely a good thing. Work is also calming down enough to not make me worry so much about who passes by my cubicle. Good news- I’ve had more field work this week, and it’s only just begun. Bad news- it takes away from my research. Seems that’s all I get done though- bloody reading. Lot good that does.
Bellatrix is still all cozy up in St. Mungo’s. Nothing has been changed with the bloody registry, and the more I look into suspicious people- the less I learn. Then I sit back and think why. Why do I do all this work, when it leaves me with more questions than answers?
Then, there is the Inquiry. I cannot help but feel awful about the deception. But what other choice do I have? I’ve always been working at the bloody Ministry, hoping one day that things will work out better. Seems like the Ministry’s always been corrupted, somehow. One way or another. But if I go blabbing off to anyone about the pamphlets, it would risk my job- what little there is of it.
Seems like the goals I strive for are closed off- like dead ends- except for the mother load secret of the Inquiry. And where will that lead, I wonder? I’ve started out wanting to change things- seems like I’ve just changed myself, and my way of thinking.
Seems like I need more sleep!