so what?

[nysfinest]

That is my mantra for today...it's so funny how life works...you take 10 steps ahead and fall back 20. I'm just in a not so happy place today. I'm sure it'll pass and I'm not quite sure how I got here...I'm not exactly sad, not really mad, not happy, not confused, not annoyed, not pissed...I'm indifferent. I don't really feel anything today.

Comments

[ny152]

Well, if I worked near you, Id be staring at you too, sexy ;)

lol

and lol @ ripping her hair out her scalp. You wouldn't do it, so hush.

but it got canceled so I have to wait until next month...

errrrrrrr. not touching that one. One of those things that just make you think. The screensaver in your brain may turn on during that, huh.

[nysfinest]

I'm one of those people who see things happen in my head and then wake p from my daydream and realize that I didn't do it...ripping her hair out is a dream...just like lotto...hey, you never know!

[ny152]

lol thats just like the fight I almost saw yesterday. one of the girls was like "bitch, I'll rip that pony out your head!"

If you read my journal (which you prolly didnt) you'da known about that.

[sirena_luna]

sometimes when I am very euphoric then I come down to earth with a crash, it doesn't mean more than that but it's pretty normal.

also there is anxiety I'm sure about the whole thing, no matter how wonderous is it (and it is!) you must be nervous also.

that's okay, go easy on yourself, you will get there. you will be okay.

[nysfinest]

I am very anxious...scared a little too...to be responsible for another person who is helpless is a mad thing. I think we'll be good parents when the time comes...we're so snobbish and elitest, our poor, poor children!

I think the part I'm dreading the most is the actual labor...I don't want to look worn out in all the pics like most new Moms...I'm not vein I'm just not photogenic so I have two evils working against me and it's not fair! Hopefully Trevor's photographer skills will make it all good. ha ha

[sirena_luna]

I think you are photogenic but TRUST YOU to worry about that!

princess!

it's nice that you are proper and all that, sometimes manners and stuff are so important when it comes to it. it's like picasso, he may have painted abstract but he knew how to paint realistic, that's the same with manners, you may use this or that, but you should know your basics, your fundamentals.

[nysfinest]

I don't think people stress manners to their kids anymore...that's why we have all these delinquents running the streets. I mean, environment is a strong influence too but it starts before kids get out into that...if their values are strong they'll be in a better position to resist the urge to do the wrong thing, you know. God, I sound like a Mom already! ha ha