Ya know, when we lose touch (probably going to happed, even though I don't really want to) I'm going to hit you up one day in the future, and if your dead I'm going to be pissed.
Pyres are never left as reminders, they arn't memorials, instead thay rot and quickly disappear, and only a residue is left in those that cared about who burned.
I believe I misstated that part. I don't want to die, not at all. My life's work won't be done until all those who tormented me have had their puny egos smashed and obliterated. So, be that my life work, I want to live forever, because I've a lot of work ahead of me.
I used pyre to represent my life, explosive in its time but (in that circumstance) short-lived. Also, it's just a cool word.
I'm guessing that even if I'm not expected to reply to this, I'm at least hoped to.
My first impression to all this.. was it was a bit wordy. I'm not always one to talk..
It also seems exceedingly stupid. The best thing here is the observation, and that doesn't seem to go inward. Which, as far as one's own life goes, is far more relevant and important. This just strikes me as an extremely accute example of what people are like at large.
That isn't a high bar to hit, and I'm not sure you've even done that.
Dammit to hell Nick, you have absolutely no clue what I went through in junior high. You never had to walk down the halls every day while people spit on you and opened your bag wide, so they could step all over the books as they fell out. And that was the easy to handle shit.
I really don't care if my hatred of those people causes me pain. I can handle it. It's not as if they didn't put me through enough pain. Some of it is a little hypocritical, but I guess that's what makes humans human. We all expect others to live up to the standards we hold, but when the shit hits the fan, we're really no better then anyone else. At least I have a reason for my hatred. The only thing close to a reason I've ever heard from those people is one guy hated me "because my sister picked her nose". Well, good job kid, at least you have a reason, even if it isn't a real reason.
I carry a LOT of rage towards those people. They should consider themselves lucky I'm better then they are. What I wrote here is a small measure of a tiny part of the rage I hold
You're right, I don't have a damn clue what you went through in junior high. Most of that is because I knew you for about six months of that time, and really, anyone at the school before I disappeared off the earth to more or less everyone until.. I think, the tail end of 10th grade. The far tail end. But you know.. that isn't so much the point
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Ok I missed the thing with Kathryn, but this post makes me sad. Look at it this way david, your life has started to improve over these last few weeks, and I think you will have more goodness coming. I just cant help but think that you are hitting yourself to hard. Dont throw yourself into the lost just yet. I don't want to come across as the over optimistic just saying bs person right now, but seriously think about where you are now and where you were
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Pyres are never left as reminders, they arn't memorials, instead thay rot and quickly disappear, and only a residue is left in those that cared about who burned.
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I used pyre to represent my life, explosive in its time but (in that circumstance) short-lived. Also, it's just a cool word.
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My first impression to all this.. was it was a bit wordy. I'm not always one to talk..
It also seems exceedingly stupid. The best thing here is the observation, and that doesn't seem to go inward. Which, as far as one's own life goes, is far more relevant and important. This just strikes me as an extremely accute example of what people are like at large.
That isn't a high bar to hit, and I'm not sure you've even done that.
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I really don't care if my hatred of those people causes me pain. I can handle it. It's not as if they didn't put me through enough pain. Some of it is a little hypocritical, but I guess that's what makes humans human. We all expect others to live up to the standards we hold, but when the shit hits the fan, we're really no better then anyone else. At least I have a reason for my hatred. The only thing close to a reason I've ever heard from those people is one guy hated me "because my sister picked her nose". Well, good job kid, at least you have a reason, even if it isn't a real reason.
I carry a LOT of rage towards those people. They should consider themselves lucky I'm better then they are. What I wrote here is a small measure of a tiny part of the rage I hold
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