oh heartache -- where've you been?

[nyx_47]

Hmm...new emotion. It is sort of refreshing, my heart feels like it is so heavy it will drop through my stomach and out of my toes. I've never been in a fight before. Let me rephrase, I've never been in a fight with a boyfriend. I am usually so laid back that I just don't want to react, and if I am angry then I bounce back quickly. I never stay

Comments

Questions.

[darkwinter143]

--How will he prove that he wants to be in your life? Will he move to Montana to be with you?

--Why does it scare that it isn't enough? Sometimes to settle is to give in and give up?

Re: Questions.

[nyx_47]

How will he prove it? I have no clue. I guess by not giving up. He's going to come see me whenever he can. But it looks like that will only be every 3 months. And by not being with anyone else i guess. He says he would never cheat on someone and I'd like to believe him, but things happen, and if he's lonely, and I'm 9 hours away. *shrug* I guess that's were trust come's in right.

It scares me that I have opened myself up to the possibility of being with someone, opened up more than I ever have in the past, and it still isn't enough. He wants more, and I can do that, but I need to time to adjust, and he wants it know. He isn't settling, he told me that he would wait until I'm ready, but he's a guy who goes for what he wants and he gets it (so he says), I just hope it doesn't come to the pt of him forcing me to say something I don't really mean.