Xavier ( Read more... )

Vivien had been avoiding everyone and everything since she got back from Verlassen's. She couldnt shake the feeling of numbness that filled her. She had dont nothing but sleep and barelly feed. The only blood she had was from bottles or bloodwine, both of which she rarely bothered with. She lay curled up in Xavier bed but he was gone a lot lately, ( Read more... )

Vivien sighed soflty as she curled the comforters around her tighter. Her body was too warm but she didnt want to be without the covers. She hadnt really left the bedroom except to shower. Her skin shimmered and was transcluent from lack of blood but she didnt care anymore. Her face had tears on it that she didnt remember crying and she tried to ( Read more... )

Vivien curled herself deeper into the blankets, almost like they could protect her even though she knew that was absurd. Her face was lined with dried blood red tears and the burns that covered her still ached with pain. She almost began to cry again at the new scars that covered her, that night was not something she wanted to remember and now the ( Read more... )

Verlassen has Xavier, I can feel it inside me. That cold disgusting feeling that only Verlassen can make someone feel. It tears me up inside that I can do nothing. I can not try to see him, try to help him. I know that the second anything happens he will close me off from him. I do not want him going through what they did to me...Roz hates him... ( Read more... )

Vivien dug through her stuff and evntually found her journal, tears covering most of the pages. She sighed and grabbed a pen, curling up on the couch with it.

Much has change since I have written...I have finally gotten back some of myself from Verlassen. Despite the pain that still lingers inside of me I manages to take back a piece of myself. I ( Read more... )

Vivien had been laying in her bed crying since last night..

I dont know what to do...Verlassen will never leave me alone. I cant sit around and wait for him to get me again. I am not match for him...I cant stop him and he wont stop till he gets Ryda ( Read more... )

Vivien sat in her hotel, packed bags all around her. She thought for sure she would leave but now she was sitting here wondering if it was the right thing to do. Leaving wouldnt solve anything...wouldnt help fix her.

What should I do.... she thought to herself as she looked around the hotel room. She had no where to go..no one to turn to for help ( Read more... )

Vivien grabbed her journal with tears flowing down her face.

I thought that I could be just a friend to him....that my feelings wouldn’t get in the way but I was wrong. I need more then he can give me right now...maybe more then he could ever give me. I don’t know what to do with myself...I have all these feelings and fears and pains...and I don ( Read more... )

Vivien laid in her bed in her hotel room. Her face was still soaked with tears and she felt sick. She had heard about Nyx's death when she had gone out to get some bloodwine earlyer..she knew Xavier was there. She contimpated going but decided against it, it wasnt her place to go...she barly knew her ( Read more... )