I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.
Or: Wherein I Speak In Insane Hyperbole And Hope I Won't Freak Any Of You Out Too Much
SOBBING IRL. I don't even know, you guys. DH1 made me feel so many things. It made me cry four times, and yes it was an awesome movie, but when I walked out of the theater, my mind couldn't stop going. It's like for the last three years, I've let myself forget just how much of my life Harry Potter has touched. (Dirty.) I mean. It's been with me half my life, I've spent years on end living and dying by the books, spent a huge chunk of my formative internet years reading fic and interacting with (a small, sane part of) fandom. These kids. This entire fucking universe. It's more than just my childhood - it's such a huge part of me, and everything I've ever felt about Harry and Ron and Hermione and Neville and Dobby and Luna and the Weasleys and Lupin and Dumbledore and and and and -- just all of it, it came rushing back, and I don't ever want this to end. I want to go back in time and live it all over again, the joy and sadness and crushing disappointment and the EMOTIONAL MAGNIFICENCE of all of it layered together and combined in every way possible.
Ugh, words, why you gotta be so hard to put together? I love everyone in this bar, okay. I feel so fucking grateful that I've been invested in this big, beautiful thing for as long as I have.
P. O. T. T. E. R. S. O. M. N. I. A. Come talk to me about this some more omg.
(via)
I tweeted this pic a couple days ago, but I just really need it here. I need to talk about it, even if I know my words will never be able to express everything I feel. Look at them. Their faces. Everything they've been through from the very beginning. JESUS. I have loved this pairing for over ten years, I don't even.
Look at eleven wait, twelve (?) year old Hermione, in all her intelligent, know-it-all, try-hard, abrasive glory. "I've learned all our course books by heart, of course, I just hope it will be enough." Oh, baby girl. She's so young, out of place and so lonely, and she thinks that all she has is her intellect. And look at her, eighteen and beautiful and so grown up, as brave and smart and loyal and brilliant as she's always been, she just didn't know it.
RONALD BILIUS WEASLEY, LIGHT OF MY LIFE. He doesn't have ANY IDEA either - he doesn't know what's inside of him, that fierce love and courage and ability and loyalty, too (ugh these kids and their goddamn loyalty), thousands and thousands of amazing things that have nothing to do with his brothers and everything to do with him, just him and his absurdly huge heart. And boy, you don't even know what this girl is going to do to you. What this girl will mean to you, how she's going to drive you insane in the best and worst ways possible, how she's going to define all that love will ever mean to you.
LOOK AT THEIR FACES!!!!! Hermione's just trying to teach him, okay, Ron, this is how it's done. It's the same, but it could not be more different, where they both started and where they ended up. Ron can't keep his eyes off her, this girl that he's known all his life; Hermione who's now HERMIONE!!!!! and everything he didn't know he could ever want, ever get to have. My OTP to end all OTPs, I swear. I loved everything they were in DH1 - it's all in their faces, and how they moved around each other and just how they talked to each other differently; bless you, Rupert and Emma, for being so so lovely.
Kris Allen - Leave You Alone
(mp3 if you're so inclined)
Kris premiered this brand new song at his last show with Lifehouse two nights ago.
Oh, Kris. What can I say about this guy that I haven't yet? It's been a year and a half, and just when I think I'm pulling away a little bit, he reels me back in. I don't have words to express how amazing it is to finally have new Kris music to obsess over. And (in my incredibly biased opinion) this one sounds fucking amazing. He's so stunningly good at making emotive music that doesn't come off as too sickly sweet or sappy or depressing (...well. They're a little depressing). I've always been all about music that makes me feel, and I can't believe how lucky I am to have found this guy who's all about feelings - in the songs he writes and the songs he chooses to cover.
Darren Criss - Teenage Dream (acoustic)
Live at The Grove
CAN WE TALK ABOUT HIS PERFECT PHRASING AND HOW GORGEOUS HIS VOICE IS WHEN IT'S NOT AUTOTUNED ALL TO HELL? <3 <3 <3 I'm such a sucker for cute boys with guitars, what can I say. YEAH I'LL PUT MY HANDS ON YOU, DARREN.
I am so fucking smitten. It feels so strange that Glee of all things is what introduced me to him, but I'm trying really hard not to let that bother me. I've caught up on all that I can catch up on save for AVPM and AVPS (I know, I know - I'm saving it up for this weekend), and he's just so endearing, hilarious, dorky, sweet, well-spoken, talented, level-headed, and goddamn attractive, I'm not sure how he exists. I'm all flailyhands and heart-eyes whenever he's brought up in any way.
These stanning goggles got put on so quickly I almost gave myself whiplash. :3
Dalton Warblers - Hey Soul Sister
YES, THERE IS GLEE CONTENT ON MY LJ. YES, THERE IS GLEE CONTENT ON MY LJ AND I'M NOT TRASHING IT.
Ugh, my life. Like I said to falulatonks, I don't even understand how this happened. In the span of three weeks, I've transformed from a Glee hater to some weird version of a Glee apologist. D: A lot of it has to do with Darren, sure, but when I found myself actually sobbing at a musical number in an episode that Blaine isn't even in... well. That was the beginning of the end*. D: D: D:
Anyway, yeah, Marry You was emotionally magnificent (the joy on all their faces omfg, and BURT HUMMEL DANCE MOVES APPRECIATION LIFE), Just The Way You Are even more so (stop making me love you unironically, Rachel Berry), blah blah blah WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT DARREN SOME MORE. Darren's stupidly earnest face, Darren's stupidly endearing dance moves, Darren's stupidly curly hair, DARREN'S STUPIDLY MAGNIFICENT EVERYTHING. How is he so cute, ugh I can't take it. LOOK AT HIM all sweet and hilarious and making Kurt smile. :333 I love everything he chooses to be.
(And again, RACHEL BERRY, STOP MAKING ME LIKE YOU. <333)
*I reserve the right to take all of this back when the Blaine Character Assassination happens. Which - this is Ryan Murphy, so duh.
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Happy Thanksgiving to all that celebrate it! I am thankful to have all of you in my life. <3
Click to viewSOBBING IRL. I don't even know, you guys. DH1 made me feel so many things. It made me cry four times, and yes it was an awesome movie, but when I walked out of the theater, my mind couldn't stop going. It's like for the last three years, I've let myself forget just how much of my life Harry Potter has touched. (Dirty.) I mean. It's been with me half my life, I've spent years on end living and dying by the books, spent a huge chunk of my formative internet years reading fic and interacting with (a small, sane part of) fandom. These kids. This entire fucking universe. It's more than just my childhood - it's such a huge part of me, and everything I've ever felt about Harry and Ron and Hermione and Neville and Dobby and Luna and the Weasleys and Lupin and Dumbledore and and and and -- just all of it, it came rushing back, and I don't ever want this to end. I want to go back in time and live it all over again, the joy and sadness and crushing disappointment and the EMOTIONAL MAGNIFICENCE of all of it layered together and combined in every way possible.
Ugh, words, why you gotta be so hard to put together? I love everyone in this bar, okay. I feel so fucking grateful that I've been invested in this big, beautiful thing for as long as I have.
P. O. T. T. E. R. S. O. M. N. I. A. Come talk to me about this some more omg.
(via)
I tweeted this pic a couple days ago, but I just really need it here. I need to talk about it, even if I know my words will never be able to express everything I feel. Look at them. Their faces. Everything they've been through from the very beginning. JESUS. I have loved this pairing for over ten years, I don't even.
Look at eleven wait, twelve (?) year old Hermione, in all her intelligent, know-it-all, try-hard, abrasive glory. "I've learned all our course books by heart, of course, I just hope it will be enough." Oh, baby girl. She's so young, out of place and so lonely, and she thinks that all she has is her intellect. And look at her, eighteen and beautiful and so grown up, as brave and smart and loyal and brilliant as she's always been, she just didn't know it.
RONALD BILIUS WEASLEY, LIGHT OF MY LIFE. He doesn't have ANY IDEA either - he doesn't know what's inside of him, that fierce love and courage and ability and loyalty, too (ugh these kids and their goddamn loyalty), thousands and thousands of amazing things that have nothing to do with his brothers and everything to do with him, just him and his absurdly huge heart. And boy, you don't even know what this girl is going to do to you. What this girl will mean to you, how she's going to drive you insane in the best and worst ways possible, how she's going to define all that love will ever mean to you.
LOOK AT THEIR FACES!!!!! Hermione's just trying to teach him, okay, Ron, this is how it's done. It's the same, but it could not be more different, where they both started and where they ended up. Ron can't keep his eyes off her, this girl that he's known all his life; Hermione who's now HERMIONE!!!!! and everything he didn't know he could ever want, ever get to have. My OTP to end all OTPs, I swear. I loved everything they were in DH1 - it's all in their faces, and how they moved around each other and just how they talked to each other differently; bless you, Rupert and Emma, for being so so lovely.
Kris Allen - Leave You Alone
(mp3 if you're so inclined)
Kris premiered this brand new song at his last show with Lifehouse two nights ago.
Oh, Kris. What can I say about this guy that I haven't yet? It's been a year and a half, and just when I think I'm pulling away a little bit, he reels me back in. I don't have words to express how amazing it is to finally have new Kris music to obsess over. And (in my incredibly biased opinion) this one sounds fucking amazing. He's so stunningly good at making emotive music that doesn't come off as too sickly sweet or sappy or depressing (...well. They're a little depressing). I've always been all about music that makes me feel, and I can't believe how lucky I am to have found this guy who's all about feelings - in the songs he writes and the songs he chooses to cover.
Darren Criss - Teenage Dream (acoustic)
Live at The Grove
CAN WE TALK ABOUT HIS PERFECT PHRASING AND HOW GORGEOUS HIS VOICE IS WHEN IT'S NOT AUTOTUNED ALL TO HELL? <3 <3 <3 I'm such a sucker for cute boys with guitars, what can I say. YEAH I'LL PUT MY HANDS ON YOU, DARREN.
I am so fucking smitten. It feels so strange that Glee of all things is what introduced me to him, but I'm trying really hard not to let that bother me. I've caught up on all that I can catch up on save for AVPM and AVPS (I know, I know - I'm saving it up for this weekend), and he's just so endearing, hilarious, dorky, sweet, well-spoken, talented, level-headed, and goddamn attractive, I'm not sure how he exists. I'm all flailyhands and heart-eyes whenever he's brought up in any way.
These stanning goggles got put on so quickly I almost gave myself whiplash. :3
Dalton Warblers - Hey Soul Sister
YES, THERE IS GLEE CONTENT ON MY LJ. YES, THERE IS GLEE CONTENT ON MY LJ AND I'M NOT TRASHING IT.
Ugh, my life. Like I said to falulatonks, I don't even understand how this happened. In the span of three weeks, I've transformed from a Glee hater to some weird version of a Glee apologist. D: A lot of it has to do with Darren, sure, but when I found myself actually sobbing at a musical number in an episode that Blaine isn't even in... well. That was the beginning of the end*. D: D: D:
Anyway, yeah, Marry You was emotionally magnificent (the joy on all their faces omfg, and BURT HUMMEL DANCE MOVES APPRECIATION LIFE), Just The Way You Are even more so (stop making me love you unironically, Rachel Berry), blah blah blah WE SHOULD TALK ABOUT DARREN SOME MORE. Darren's stupidly earnest face, Darren's stupidly endearing dance moves, Darren's stupidly curly hair, DARREN'S STUPIDLY MAGNIFICENT EVERYTHING. How is he so cute, ugh I can't take it. LOOK AT HIM all sweet and hilarious and making Kurt smile. :333 I love everything he chooses to be.
(And again, RACHEL BERRY, STOP MAKING ME LIKE YOU. <333)
*I reserve the right to take all of this back when the Blaine Character Assassination happens. Which - this is Ryan Murphy, so duh.
***
Happy Thanksgiving to all that celebrate it! I am thankful to have all of you in my life. <3