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I see Joe and it's like he did nothing wrong... When it comes down to it he's a sweet boy... Just doesn't realize how messed up I am ( Read more... )

So Joe is def fucking up lately!! I haven't seen him since Sunday morning and I was all excited to see him today and so I got all ready and cute and showered and what not... and It's 9:30 and he still won't be here for atleast another hour! I am so pissed off!! Why do I try? I'm starting to feel again like I'm just an option... Brandon and shoes ( Read more... )

So new semester starts tomorrow! I've got a bit to do still! Tonight I need to clean my room/hallway and I need to do laundry. I also need to print off a few things and pack my bag for school! I'm ready to get back to school because I know it brings me closer to graduation but still... It's a lot of work!! My days are going to become pretty ( Read more... )

So I've been doing better with my eating lately... though it's difficult at times ( Read more... )

Yet another Lazy Day! Stayed in bed most of the day with Joe! He went home to shower... I did the same... I guess tonight we're going to Mongo and then Grocery Shopping... Tomorrow I gotta buckle down and focus! New Year and I gotta kick the laziness... If I wasn't so damn lazy I'd be golden ( Read more... )

So Biggest Loser starts January 5th for the family and crew! That means I start working out, getting organized, and eating better! I have to put forth a different effort in my life ( Read more... )

So I enjoyed kicking off the new year in style! New Years Eve was spent partying it up at Max's! Max, Brandon, Marshall, Danny, Joe, myself, Wes, Cole, Ericka, Lindsey, and Krista kicked in the New Year! We drank... a lot... and I got my midnight kiss :) Which made me super happy! Then we began with our drinking games! Played Ring of Death which ( Read more... )

I give up... I'm sick of doing my best to be a good girlfriend and getting fucked over... I'm sick of having such a strong heart that wants to be loved back and I'm not getting it at all! I'm falling for and he's falling from... It kills... How can I mean sooooo little to someone? I was so afraid that it would happen again... perfection turned ( Read more... )

I want to feel loved/wanted/accepted... I want to know that I'm good enough... Hell I want to feel like I'm better than good enough... Don't get me wrong Joe's amazing when he's right in front of me... which is a lot... but when he's not with me... He's become a little inconsiderate and that really saddens me. I hate to say it but he's started to ( Read more... )