Dude, I can read books now. Not PDFs on-line. And the books won't have to do with Freud, Just War Theory or totalitarianism. Or if they do, at least I will have chosen for them to be about those topics.

Giovannis Room is first
Then Anna Karenina.
Then maybe the cairo trilogy.

So I have come out of paper hell with some interesting insight about myself. Like... deadlines are motivational, I am capable of writing pretty good papers on books I haven't even read in half as many hours as pages I shit out... and like, when you whine and ask for help, people empathize with you. This is a note I got form a TA after writing a ( Read more... )

I want someone to yell at, but I know its really just my own damn fault. I hate that feeling. I want to be like K. and blame anyone but myself, always maintaining my own innocents. But it isn't fair. I should just buck up and take responsibility for my own incompetence... but that always leads down a long path of self deprecation, academic self ( Read more... )

As in, they sit on the shelf to make you look smart or well-rounded. Bold the ones you've read, italicise the ones you own but haven't read, underline the ones you started but didn't finish.
Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell I really liked it. Sort of. I liked the way it was written, but I kept waiting for something to happen, and I wandered off about 2 ( Read more... )

I think I can, I think I can, I'm lying to myself.

Its ok

Its not ok

But that's alright...

It's not alright...

But it will do...

It WONT do...

But it does not matter...

It matters...

It is funny how, even when you make monumental breakthroughs in your conceptualization of your place in a community (extended family), you can still fail to be able to effectively actualize them. Like... so my whole family is totally crazy. My grandmother can't sit still for more than two seconds and spends the whole thanksgiving cleaning ( Read more... )

After tonight, I will not have to write a single FUCKING paper until the last week of classes. Never mind that I have four due within less than a week of eachother at that point- that's besides the point. I feel like a real student- two years ago I would have been listing eight concerts in two weeks, each of which having different music. Jesus, ( Read more... )

All this tells me is that I only have garage rock, tom waits and bob dylan on my itunes. I think this game implies that I should have 17 days of music, which I just don't. This is dumb ( Read more... )

I slept for about 1.5 hours last night not because I did not go to bed at 11:00ish, but because I was too anxious and stressed out to sleep. I finally dozed off sometime after 3am, but was startled awake by the death alarm at 4:30 to go to Open Book and serve voters coffee. Walter Mondale came in, which was pretty sweet. The shift itself was ( Read more... )

Today is my first day off in a long time, and the last one i will have for a couple of weeks. I am starting to realize that my work schedule is not exactly conducive to being a full-time student, but I think I am managing my time alright. It sucks to be learning dead-line to dead-line and not class to class, and I really hate going to ( Read more... )