thirtieth memory
XI's gone.
Guess I should have expected that. The City's not supposed to be somewhere you get to stay. Everyone leaves. Maybe I'll be the next one.
I used to think that I wouldn't take the way out even if they gave me a door. That whether I wanted my heart or not, I couldn't just leave him here. He'd probably end up dying for some friend if he didn't have someone to help him. But not wanting to go... that's just running away from whatever happened. Whatever they think happened, anyway. And I'm not going to do that.
Just because it went one way for them doesn't mean it has to be that way for me. I know better now. I won't run away and I won't disappear.
It shouldn't be that hard to figure things out once I get back. And then, once it's over, I can use the corridors to go see other worlds. It sounds like there are some weird places out there - things to fight and... different things. The Reapers' Game sounded pretty interesting. Not so sure about the other stuff, though. I still don't really get it, why people care about things like movies and video games and books and art. They're just stories. They don't change anything. They don't help.
After a while, they all start to sound the same, too. People fight and make up and die and get born and nothing ever changes.
But it's not like I have anything better to do.
Guess I should have expected that. The City's not supposed to be somewhere you get to stay. Everyone leaves. Maybe I'll be the next one.
I used to think that I wouldn't take the way out even if they gave me a door. That whether I wanted my heart or not, I couldn't just leave him here. He'd probably end up dying for some friend if he didn't have someone to help him. But not wanting to go... that's just running away from whatever happened. Whatever they think happened, anyway. And I'm not going to do that.
Just because it went one way for them doesn't mean it has to be that way for me. I know better now. I won't run away and I won't disappear.
It shouldn't be that hard to figure things out once I get back. And then, once it's over, I can use the corridors to go see other worlds. It sounds like there are some weird places out there - things to fight and... different things. The Reapers' Game sounded pretty interesting. Not so sure about the other stuff, though. I still don't really get it, why people care about things like movies and video games and books and art. They're just stories. They don't change anything. They don't help.
After a while, they all start to sound the same, too. People fight and make up and die and get born and nothing ever changes.
But it's not like I have anything better to do.