not fair...just...not fair

[oblivious_ninja]

i realize that my last few posts havnt exactly been hunky-dory...and this one inst any different...LJ is my outward vent, so all u guys with comments like "stfu, u emo freak" can just stop reading now

Comments

[shroomi]

Aw, Vik, i only wish there was something i could do to help... i know it sounds retarted and whatnot, but i mean...idk, i just never understood why everything works out the way it should. Why everything must work out so unjust, and so unfair. Why the people that deserve the best (such as yourself) have to recieve things that you don't like... bleh, i'm tired and a at a lack for correct words, so forgive me hah. I... i don't know, i just wished that everyone acctually got what they deserved... And as for the friends thing... i started getting pretty pissed off when people began to assume that they can just take my shit, sure i love sharing and whatnot, but jeeze...i want to stab them sometimes lol. But i'm trying to work on not being as passive, and actually speaking up for how i feel...i don't really like it, but it works i guess. Just as always though... i wish for things to turn up for you, because you deserve it more than anyone else out there at our lunch. ♥

[oblivious_ninja]

your words ease the stress...words far too kind for one such as myself

[shroomi]

There can never be words to kind for you, fuck there aren't even words for how kind you are!

[oblivious_ninja]

ha ha, overstatement

[godzilla_231]

i dont know what it feels like vik, but it sure as hell cant be fun.
...im at a loss of words right now, i dont know how many times one can say "im soooo soory for you". all i can say tell you is to not let this problem take control of every action you make today or 2 years from now (hopefully the problem is gone by then). i mean this is taking over your life. im not telling you to just be open with your problem (cuz hell i wouldnt tell anyone either) im just saying.....hell i dont even know what im trying to say.
just hang in there man. dont let depression take over, stay happpy, have fun even if it means wearing a jacket, you've got so many friends and making them as i speak (matt p. on our way to 2nd..). youve got friends who support you even dar yes heh
just hang in there....
oh and ill back you up in lunch, ppl can have stuuf when you're ~done~.

[oblivious_ninja]

yea, i realize that its starting to annoy me more than ever before but its mostly because the reminders are getting more frequent and more intense. i like to forget it all...one of the only things i like to forget. friday, some girl asked me if i have stretch marks on my boobs...didnt know whether to take her seriously or not...kinda shook it off by breaking a pencil, but ehh. but in all seriousity, i dont care if people feel sorry for me because i dont need pity...i hate pity and its acceptance is like admitting weakness, which i wont allow myself to be. but thanx for everything

[jmzee52]

hunky-dory. i never heard that before. i love you vik. youre a great guy and im so so sorry if i ever annoy you. you know it's out of pure love. are you jealous of me?! haha jk. :)

[oblivious_ninja]

no no you dont annoy me at all. you dont really understand what im talking about in the post, so i dont mind you. hmm...sorry to say jamie, that im not jealous of you. lol, well, cept for how well you bake stuff. thats awesome =D

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[garkudion]

Vikash, we need to talk. These people are really just being nice...I think you need to get a few things straight with yourself, and I'd like to have a long talk with you so you can get your view of yourself into better position. IM me, honestly. You need to set some things straight. It's Of Gerudo. I'm on day and night. >< We need to chat.