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oblivious_ninja

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Mar 26, 2006 23:47

its kinda late, so ill make this short...bowling friday was awesome! well, at least it was going good until danny decides to pinch me twice while he is passing by...u know where of course. id have liked to punch him. id have liked to kill him. id have liked to do alot. but instead, all i did was scream "WHAT THE CRAP?!" and raise a fist but i ( Read more... )

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shroomi March 27 2006, 17:09:40 UTC

It makes me so unhappy to hear you like this... Vik, you do have a purpose, weather you realize it now or not. I know that of all people, i am propably the leaste to be hearing things about how life is worth it...but you are such a great person and friend... You don't deserve to suffer... but think about it this way, if it sucks this bad now, can't it only get better? I guess that's why i'm still here...still waiting it out for things to get better. I want to prove to myself that things won't always be as bad as they are now. And as a Muslim, i can tell you that it's not cursed that if you don't have children... i mean, i don't really want kids...dosn't mean that i'm sinning or something. And don't worry...i suck worse in pool. (and i have a pool table in my house ><) I want you to know that if you ever need a shoulder to cry upon, i am here. You are no less masculine than any other guy, acctually i believe that guys that try to be all big, and act as stupid as some people that we know, that they are so much less the guy than everyone ( ... )

oblivious_ninja March 28 2006, 02:32:33 UTC

get better? either you havnt heard the full story, of you need to see my doctors and tell em theyre wrong. and you misunderstand...he said that if god wont let you have children....WONT LET YOU HAVE not "if u dont have"...hormones fucked me up too early, and now i cant have what i want the most. kids. as for masculinity...what guy cries every other day? what guy cries in public? no girl wants that. im supposed to be tough or something, not a 6-year old girly man. i must have done something in my past life to deserve this. i feel like ive lost a lot of faith in everything...dont think ill be so cheery this week.

shroomi March 28 2006, 03:00:28 UTC

I meant that i hope life in general can only get better. I wish we could trade, cuz i can have kids...but i don't want to. And trust me... you will find someone that dosn't care about any of the things you are worried about, and will only be there to hold you and make things better when you do cry. And then, hopefully things will be good enough that you won't feel enough pain or sadness to cry as much. Please don't loose faith...you're one of the few people who gives me hope and such... =(

godzilla_231 March 27 2006, 21:51:16 UTC

come on man! what are you talking about you not having a purpose?!? what happened to your plans of protecting that one person you would give up anything in a second for? dont tell me you've given up cuz this doesnt sound like the vik i know. as for that priest guy there was probably more to it, that or he isnt very good at his job. dont worry about danny man, he's just like Chase except more......white and danny-like. i seriously saw him coming and when he was finished doing his thing even i wanted to punch him too cuz i saw how uncomfortable you were after that. i kept on trying to take you mind off of the whole thing with pools but i didnt know you were stilll think about it though. just keep away from danny, he doesnt know any better. he was just being too friendly.

dont give up on that vow to protect the weak man. ppl out there need people like you. dont give up...

oblivious_ninja March 28 2006, 02:48:10 UTC

i cant even have a verbal arguement without crying...what is that? how am i to protect someone if i need everyone to protect me still? like i said to reema, i think ive lost a lot of faith and hope in life in the past 48 hours. i think you too misunderstand but in a different way. he wasnt wrong, and there cant really be that much more to it. i seriously believed in what he began to say. how children were the best thing god could give to you. how they complete your life. allow you pass away knowing that you're not completely gone from people's memories becuz ur kid's there to carry on ur legacy and values and ur essence...where is my share of the wealth? Chase...i like chase. he cares, just doesnt know. danny strikes me as a person who doesnt care. his actions annoy me and his ways i disagree with. man, dont get upset over me. sure, i missed like, every shot cuz of that...and sure i lost every match in tekken with Chase, and John, but...ok i really cant find any other way to justify that...but idk, its not ur problem, so i dont think ( ... )

oblivious_ninja March 31 2006, 22:25:04 UTC

hey, this is jason, and all i can say is that i feel sorry and hope u feel better. now i dont know if consoling you and saying sry is gunna help you, but i did anyways. so has everyone above^, because they DO CARE FOR YOU. even if one person cares for you, u have made a difference in this world. just keep on believing everything will be alright, its not a false sense of hope or security, but an action that proves that something great will happen to you and you yourself will make it happen. you wont just put your life on the back-burner, so one should ever do that. HAVE FUN, life is meant for that ( ... )

oblivious_ninja April 3 2006, 02:43:38 UTC

hmm...suppose most i can say is thanks at this point.

Hi anonymous March 29 2006, 03:53:36 UTC

...i heart you...

~Aly