i'd like to think things will get better. i wish max and LC! never left. i thought about all my times spent with blair and nicole downtown last school year and almost cried the other day.

my drug use is getting a little out of hand. ah well, college...

1. men (and their lack of calling me, or just lack of existence ( Read more... )

i'm very black and blue on the legs. melt banana was so amazing live. time to smoke weed with my roomate

the retardation of my life is actually inconcievable, even to me, at this point

and then it occurs to me, like a flash of lightening from the sky:

I SHOULD BE OUT SHOOTING!

I spent basically all weekend in Ross's apartment with him. On friday I went there, we smoked, went to a bar. Pretty boring stuff. On saturday we slept all day, he bought me food, drank wine, watched "Death Metal: a documentary". we went to ashleys house and john was mean to Ross because John is a dick. Then we came back and ate more food and drank ( Read more... )

well maybe i wouldnt have fucked another guy if you hadn't BROKEN UP WITH ME. maybe i wouldnt have fucked another guy if you hadn't told me you didn't care at ALL if i hooked up with someone else. i dont care that i hurt you. this is what you deserve for what you did to me. be happy with your little blonde bitch, we'll see how long it lasts before ( Read more... )

i give up on my life every being anything other than retarded, completely, completely retarded.

yo i seriously have no idea what the fuck is going on with my life. i really dont. i really like have no idea whats going on, where i am, who am i, what the fuck is going on ( Read more... )

tonight i went to a show and got mad fucked up and acted mad apathetic towards devin and he had to get my attention on his own and the show was fucking amazing, death set was soo good, dan deacon was fuckin incredible, and while departing from the L train by myself at 8th ave because everyone else got off at union square (he said i love you and i ( Read more... )