What am I doing? Do you have any clue what my day looks like tomorrow? No? Little overview....

1. Parade in Seaside at 0830 or 0900
2. Cleaning/Laundry
3. Homework
4. Across the Universe movie at 1900
5. Sleep

I guess I wouldn't expect much from a bunch of Military songs but wow they really make me tear up. I guess knowing that I'm in and will be until 2012 kinda makes me feel strange. I don't really want to go to war, but I know it is an option and these country songs I downloaded this evening just make me think that it might be too close to home some ( Read more... )

""We watched the season pull up its on stakes
And catched the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away."'
I guess that it is a posibility. I wouldn't put anything past me at this point. I have never really felt this way in my life. I'm not really sure what to do anymore. I can' ( Read more... )

I'm hitting bottom slowly. I can handle almost anything in life, or at least I fake that I can. But I can't handle this. He is hurting and in pain and suffering so much. I don't know what there is for me to do but be there and be strong. I can't even seem to be strong. I'm so scared that I am going to lose the one person in this world that means so ( Read more... )

I will always place the mission first
I will never accept defeat
I will never quit
I will never leave a fallen comrade
-Warrior's Ethos

WARNING THIS SECTION HAS LANGUAGE THAT YOU MAY NOT AGREE WITH, CONDONE, OR WANT TO READ

How is it that for a group of people that take time out of their lives can end up being shafted more then, well excuse the use of ( Read more... )

Your doing better today. I had such a big smile on my face when I found this out. I'm not as stressed and I feel so happy. I'm glad that things are starting to turn out better for you. I really wanted to cry those other days. I didn't like not being able to do anything to make you feel better. I really wanted to take it all away. Just ... I felt so ( Read more... )

I am really starting to have it get to me. I have to hide things. I knew I would have to, but it is starting to hurt me. I found the person in my life I want to spend the rest of my life with and the thought that I might have to be away from them for four years kills me inside. I act like it doesn't bother me but every time I think about it I tear ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to listen to.

I had training on my birthday and it was really fun. I enjoyed it all in all. It was a long day, however I got to do a lot of things that we don't do very often here. Afterwards me, Denea, and Eric went over to Sarah & James' house and drank and played games. It was a good way to spend ( Read more... )