back to the grindstone...
*sigh* back at school, unfortunately. This term is already dragging, and christmas holidays seem like a lifetime ago. Very memorable, admittedly, but so long ago...
I've finally managed to finish my essay for Professor Binns. Once I've written this, I'll head over to Jarrod's for some relaxing chatting and shagging.
I still can't believe what happened with Jarrod. I mean, I knew he was gay, and he is a stunning bloke, but I never thought he'd be interested in me...I'd assumed the glances my way were all in my head, that I was imagining things. I'd resigned myself to sitting alone in bed with only my right hand for company. I'm so glad that I decided to seek out his company that night at the ski lodge.
I think I may have to go back there someday and marry that boulder that maliciously injured me - it did me a huge favour. Exactly how I repay a hunk of rock, I'm not entirely sure...I'm sure I can think of something though. Something other than sex. With Jarrod.
Gods, he's gorgeous...I'm going to need to get an anti-Jarrod filter or something. Right now, I see him, and all I can think about is grabbing him, dragging him into a cupboard, and letting him have his wicked way with me.
I still don't know if he realises how special that night was to me. He knows I was a virgin, but the way he treats sex...I don't think he sees it the way I do. It's something I'll remember for the rest of my life, even if it never happens again, even if Jarrod never wants to speak to me ever again.
Right now, I'm happy to play the cocky Slytherin, flirting with everyone, happy to shag Jarrod when I'm horny, but by no means exclusive. Anything else would scare him away. He can't know that I want to belong to him, and only him. That seeing him flirt with people other than me drives me insane, that the mere thought of him fucking someone else just makes me want to hurt things.
I can't get obsessed with him. I can't rely on him to be there. He's my friend, and we fuck, but that doesn't mean anything more. I've learnt my lesson - don't depend on anyone except yourself, they'll only leave you behind.
Now, I'll have to find something to wear that'll make Jarrod go wild...I have a sudden craving for my leather trousers....*smirk*
I've finally managed to finish my essay for Professor Binns. Once I've written this, I'll head over to Jarrod's for some relaxing chatting and shagging.
I still can't believe what happened with Jarrod. I mean, I knew he was gay, and he is a stunning bloke, but I never thought he'd be interested in me...I'd assumed the glances my way were all in my head, that I was imagining things. I'd resigned myself to sitting alone in bed with only my right hand for company. I'm so glad that I decided to seek out his company that night at the ski lodge.
I think I may have to go back there someday and marry that boulder that maliciously injured me - it did me a huge favour. Exactly how I repay a hunk of rock, I'm not entirely sure...I'm sure I can think of something though. Something other than sex. With Jarrod.
Gods, he's gorgeous...I'm going to need to get an anti-Jarrod filter or something. Right now, I see him, and all I can think about is grabbing him, dragging him into a cupboard, and letting him have his wicked way with me.
I still don't know if he realises how special that night was to me. He knows I was a virgin, but the way he treats sex...I don't think he sees it the way I do. It's something I'll remember for the rest of my life, even if it never happens again, even if Jarrod never wants to speak to me ever again.
Right now, I'm happy to play the cocky Slytherin, flirting with everyone, happy to shag Jarrod when I'm horny, but by no means exclusive. Anything else would scare him away. He can't know that I want to belong to him, and only him. That seeing him flirt with people other than me drives me insane, that the mere thought of him fucking someone else just makes me want to hurt things.
I can't get obsessed with him. I can't rely on him to be there. He's my friend, and we fuck, but that doesn't mean anything more. I've learnt my lesson - don't depend on anyone except yourself, they'll only leave you behind.
Now, I'll have to find something to wear that'll make Jarrod go wild...I have a sudden craving for my leather trousers....*smirk*