I'm sorry you're having a hard time, dear. I wish I was in country so I could take you out and tell you it's OK. We all have 'down' times, but I'm sure it will pass.
*hugs* yeah, I wish I could, too. I feel like I need a break, and a change of scenery. I was thinking of going out with a friend, maybe taking a weekend trip, but it doesn't seem to be working out. It's so expensive and ugh.
Thanks for the link! It's got some solid advice and I'm going to try to consciously do it! *hugs* thanks bb.
Get thee to a doctor and tell him/her you suspect depression. You may not have to take anything but you do need to be sure you're seen. It's also good to be with friends, if possible.
I had depression in my 20's and I know what it's like - not to compare us, as I hardly know you. All I do know is the apathy concerns me. And, FWIW, I had similar dreams....mine was always a pet store or shop where the animals were abandoned and dying, and it was in some way my fault (I was the abandoner.) Many times it was an aquarium where fish were sold. Weird, huh? *hugs you*
Be with other people. Call the doc. *hugs you again for good measure*
*hugs back* I wish I could be with people. But there's two obstacles: them and me. It's end of term so there's submissions frenzy and then everyone's going home, so no one's got time. and then I'm at fault too, because I find myself avoiding people I know for no good reason, when normally I'd have gone up to them just to chat for five minutes or so. I feel like I'm not myself and it blows
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I'm just going to hug you back, and ask you to please see a doctor again. You avoided response to that last time.... DOCTOR. Student health center. Whatevs. I expect you to do this and report back
Tough virtual love back <3
(don't worry about your parents finding out, I completely get that, I'm old and I still hide things from my parents LOL - but patient confidentiality is a thing)
Remember to breath. Give yourself a few minutes before you go to bed and breath.
As to the dream... It sounds like you feel powerless, and are struggling. The island probably represents the things you want to protect, but aren't able to, and so you're swimming around it, trying to help.
Just remember, though, that dreams are only our mind trying to make sense of our fears and the things we experience in our waking world. Overwhelming yourself with things to do probably isn't going to help, but neither is dwelling on that which you can't change.
If you can't get to a doctor, then please talk to someone you trust, someone you can vent to, someone who will listen without judgement or trying to intervene.
Yeah. I need to strike some sort of balance. I've always had horrifying dreams. Vivid and inventive, and when I'm under pressure I wake up screaming etc. It sucks. I need to sort my head out and learn to be okay. I keep comparing myself to other people and the thing is, I know I shouldn't be apathetic. But I am, and more than anything that's scaring me. The "why am I not scared" thing. Ugh.
Nothing is wrong with you. Even if you are depressed, that doesn't mean that something is wrong with you. You can be fully functional with depression, once I had it for eight years straight and didn't realize I was in that state til it broke. In fact I was decidedly efficient in that state since all I was governed by was duty and the feeling like I should do things
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Yeah, I hope not. I know that depression happens, sometimes, but it's just unsettling. To feel so detached and disjointed from myself. Like there's one thing happening in my head and another thing happening in RL and I just don't care enough to make it connect. A lot of stuff I do is because I have to, and not because I want to. It's when I stop wanting to do the things I normally want to, that I get concerned.
Thank you *hugs*. I think I'm getting somewhere. I hope I am, anyway. I just need to get some work done, look at it and feel like I've accomplished something, and then things should fall into place. I hope. Thank you for listening to my bs. *squeezes*
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I read an article a while back about ways to get out of a slump- maybe one of them will strike a chord with you? http://realfitmama.org/blog/2013/7/6/beat-the-blues-10-tips-for-getting-out-of-a-slump
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Thanks for the link! It's got some solid advice and I'm going to try to consciously do it! *hugs* thanks bb.
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I had depression in my 20's and I know what it's like - not to compare us, as I hardly know you. All I do know is the apathy concerns me. And, FWIW, I had similar dreams....mine was always a pet store or shop where the animals were abandoned and dying, and it was in some way my fault (I was the abandoner.) Many times it was an aquarium where fish were sold. Weird, huh? *hugs you*
Be with other people. Call the doc.
*hugs you again for good measure*
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Tough virtual love back <3
(don't worry about your parents finding out, I completely get that, I'm old and I still hide things from my parents LOL - but patient confidentiality is a thing)
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As to the dream... It sounds like you feel powerless, and are struggling. The island probably represents the things you want to protect, but aren't able to, and so you're swimming around it, trying to help.
Just remember, though, that dreams are only our mind trying to make sense of our fears and the things we experience in our waking world. Overwhelming yourself with things to do probably isn't going to help, but neither is dwelling on that which you can't change.
If you can't get to a doctor, then please talk to someone you trust, someone you can vent to, someone who will listen without judgement or trying to intervene.
*Hugs*
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Thanks bb. *hugs*.
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Thank you *hugs*. I think I'm getting somewhere. I hope I am, anyway. I just need to get some work done, look at it and feel like I've accomplished something, and then things should fall into place. I hope. Thank you for listening to my bs. *squeezes*
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