this kid
my obsession from way back
Timothy and I had this wonderful obsession with each other. I have managed to let it go as much as I could. Yet for some reason when I saw him this weekend, not expecting it but the thought did cross my mind. I was going around Grand Entry and I realized that the person talking to Tim Sr. was none other than Timothy. All of a sudden my body was racing, my heart picked up as if i were running, my whole body felt jittery, I didn't know i could still feel like this.
I kept wondering if there were still any feelings there. While I am really content with my current boyfriend, I still occasionally think about him. He has his own life now, he has a baby girl and a girl friend who I am not sure on the details of their relationship, but I can be hopeful can't I. I avoided going over there all day but I did continue to look from afar. I knew how to work the circle and find him when I needed to see him. I look at him and his good looks just remind me everytime what I felt, still feel sort of. I was told once that you never forget your first snag, and he is pretty much my first snag. (snag = boy who is met at a pow wow or somewhere)
I see him and its like the very first time I realized that I liked him. Every time I would see him the only time I ever got nervous would be then. Why after eight years do I still get nervous around this guy? Is there some un known factor that he has held over me? He must have put some weird thing on me so I am still infatuated with him long after we had our chance.
Timothy and I had this wonderful obsession with each other. I have managed to let it go as much as I could. Yet for some reason when I saw him this weekend, not expecting it but the thought did cross my mind. I was going around Grand Entry and I realized that the person talking to Tim Sr. was none other than Timothy. All of a sudden my body was racing, my heart picked up as if i were running, my whole body felt jittery, I didn't know i could still feel like this.
I kept wondering if there were still any feelings there. While I am really content with my current boyfriend, I still occasionally think about him. He has his own life now, he has a baby girl and a girl friend who I am not sure on the details of their relationship, but I can be hopeful can't I. I avoided going over there all day but I did continue to look from afar. I knew how to work the circle and find him when I needed to see him. I look at him and his good looks just remind me everytime what I felt, still feel sort of. I was told once that you never forget your first snag, and he is pretty much my first snag. (snag = boy who is met at a pow wow or somewhere)
I see him and its like the very first time I realized that I liked him. Every time I would see him the only time I ever got nervous would be then. Why after eight years do I still get nervous around this guy? Is there some un known factor that he has held over me? He must have put some weird thing on me so I am still infatuated with him long after we had our chance.