I feel...

Is what spirit has said to me......oh, Goddess knows, I have plenty to worry and struggle about ( Read more... )

broken.

ok, yea, I know I ask a lot of questions. Questions that are not easily answered. That's what this journal is for...to put my thoughts in writing. I constantly question everything. Everything is grey, not black and white. I am the only one who will find my answers. This is just a sound board for the questions in my mind. And, of course any ( Read more... )

I'm trying to find a balance in my life. Balancing alone time; time with my partner; time with kids. When finding balance, I am discovering just what and who has meaning in my life. I want to be with people who are real...people who touch my heart and spark excitement in my spirit ( Read more... )

I find myself so obsessed with writing! I am not able to do much of anything else....I love it..and it is consuming me at the moment which is great because, it keeps me from focusing on my relationships. I am however, still and always will be worried about my kids...

But, it will be okay!

I'm have yet to meet a man (my son not included) that has any real inner depth. It's very discouraging....oh sure, they can be cute, charming, somewhat attentive, but where is the realnees...where is the desire for a real connection with a woman? Do they not possess this ability? Ok, well, maybe it is due to the fact that I have not met one yet ( Read more... )

I'm thinking today..everything is transient...so what the fuck is it all about anyway? The material things in our lives are temorary..our friends, our jobs...they come and go. Lovers and partners come and go, our children grow up and move away. I find myself rather pessimistic today and not very spiritual. If everything is transiant....what ( Read more... )

We had to say goodbye to our beloved Australian Shepard, Madison Grey, last night. My heart is very heavy and sore today. She had a rare fungus type of infection called pythiosis. It is a spore which is ingested and grows uncontrollably in the digestive system, it is similar to cancer. Maddie was part of our family for five wonderful years and ( Read more... )

Well, the new year is off to an interesting start. Life is so fascinating to me! Work has been insane and has been my focus for the last several weeks. Spent some much needed time with the girls last night. Will is still sick and going back to the Dr. today...:(. It's strange...I have this calmness in my heart; but the calmness is a choice I ( Read more... )