2018-11-06 Vignette
Sweat
My world has changed since we met
Long empty streets,
shadow and vignette
You are the focus of my lens
I never would have bet
That I'd feel something for you
But that's not a regret
It's just confusing, cost
I don't want a relationship
Maybe I'm just crushing, crossed
It's bizarre to lose my grip
I guess I'm rushing, exhaust
But I haven't missed anyone like this
Since I was young
I was sensitive, insecure, and high strung
But when I stepped up
to the bat
I swung
Aimed for the sky
And burned in the sun
Spun and undone
Conscience overrun
Lost seven years of freedom
But now I'm far flung
From those tumultuous days demoralized
Suppliance, hope unrecognized
From violence, desensitized
Non-compliance, palpable pain depressurized
Recognize, relate and rationalize
Pseudoscience, defiance,
benevolence and self-reliance
But for real, it's not the same
These days my heart rests easy
And I'm free from the game
The old days died and I overcame
The bondage of self
And the prison of pain
But then you appeared in my life
And ignited a flame
Once romance was easy
It seemed a simple thing
Not sure if times changed
Or if it's age that brings
The weight of hesitance
A dark wellspring that stings
Pulsing in my head
Tugging at my heartstrings
I whisper to myself
With words that convict
Can't give in to the feels,
and it creates conflict
But I imagine your smile
The bitter kiss it inflicts,
and I still crave your touch
Like a drug addict
And I think about you
Like clouds and cabaret
Distinctive deja-vu
Play in Monterey
Tango and pas-de-deux
But I feel miles away
There's a wall here with you
That's why I can't stay
Because it doesn't add up
Gives me a weird vibe
But I haven't asked
I don't want you to lie,
run, hide, or be sly
Better to trust intuition
Than apply pressure or pry
To respect boundaries
Not because I'm shy
So that's it
You can have that cigarette
And if it doesn't work out
I'll walk into the sunset
Back to them long empty streets,
that shadow and vignette
But I'll still think of your face
And I'll never forget
My world has changed since we met
Long empty streets,
shadow and vignette
You are the focus of my lens
I never would have bet
That I'd feel something for you
But that's not a regret
It's just confusing, cost
I don't want a relationship
Maybe I'm just crushing, crossed
It's bizarre to lose my grip
I guess I'm rushing, exhaust
But I haven't missed anyone like this
Since I was young
I was sensitive, insecure, and high strung
But when I stepped up
to the bat
I swung
Aimed for the sky
And burned in the sun
Spun and undone
Conscience overrun
Lost seven years of freedom
But now I'm far flung
From those tumultuous days demoralized
Suppliance, hope unrecognized
From violence, desensitized
Non-compliance, palpable pain depressurized
Recognize, relate and rationalize
Pseudoscience, defiance,
benevolence and self-reliance
But for real, it's not the same
These days my heart rests easy
And I'm free from the game
The old days died and I overcame
The bondage of self
And the prison of pain
But then you appeared in my life
And ignited a flame
Once romance was easy
It seemed a simple thing
Not sure if times changed
Or if it's age that brings
The weight of hesitance
A dark wellspring that stings
Pulsing in my head
Tugging at my heartstrings
I whisper to myself
With words that convict
Can't give in to the feels,
and it creates conflict
But I imagine your smile
The bitter kiss it inflicts,
and I still crave your touch
Like a drug addict
And I think about you
Like clouds and cabaret
Distinctive deja-vu
Play in Monterey
Tango and pas-de-deux
But I feel miles away
There's a wall here with you
That's why I can't stay
Because it doesn't add up
Gives me a weird vibe
But I haven't asked
I don't want you to lie,
run, hide, or be sly
Better to trust intuition
Than apply pressure or pry
To respect boundaries
Not because I'm shy
So that's it
You can have that cigarette
And if it doesn't work out
I'll walk into the sunset
Back to them long empty streets,
that shadow and vignette
But I'll still think of your face
And I'll never forget