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[ocean87]

have you ever been torn? ever been really happy but immensely sad at the same time

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[megone_crazy]

i know it sounds crazy.. but sometimes its best just to breakdown and get it over with, yknow? maybe you need to get rid of all the sadness and hurt in order to be 100% happy... if that makes sense *shrugs*

i hope you feel better though ;D

[ocean87]

it does make sense, and i have been "letting some stuff out". but because some things are ongoing, i cant get rid of them completely (i.e. parents, exams, esteem).

i think i need professional help, but am too scared to go for it.

thanks for caring :)

[broken_kitten]

i'm happy for you that you've been feeling so great. on the other hand, could it be a sign that something is causing your problems to affect you more? it could be your relationship, holiday stress, or something else. i found that once my problems were interfering with every aspect of my life i had to get help. :/

[ocean87]

something is effecting me more, but it was there before my relationship started. i think i need help.

what happened with you when you got help?

[broken_kitten]

when i first got help it was when i was 16 (four years ago) and people found out that i'd been cutting and was suicidal. it was hard seeing my parents' reactions, and everything felt new and scary to me. but i ended up getting a psychologist and a psychiatrist. with my psychologist i felt like i had a friend to share things with, cause i'd never had a caring friend like that before. plus she wasn't shocked with anything i said or did cause she was trained. my psychiatrist put me on some medications that helped me from feeling too desperate and scared, so it was easier to work in therapy.

maybe go to your family doctor or call the mental health services in your area. they'd both have great resources and tell you where you could start to get help. i hope it works out okay for you! <3

[ocean87]

i know i should, but i just cant bring myself to.

if it was so easy, i would have done it 3 yrs ago. argh. what am i so afraid of?

[girl_someday]

Hi, i miss you.
You need to focus on only the good things, the more you do that the more you'll forget about the bad things :) (i promise)

We have to hang out soon ok?

[ocean87]

we need to, i miss you so much.

im going away on tuesday, and wont be back till the day before school : ( . i dont want to go.

[girl_someday]

BIG BUMS

Well try to have fun :/ merry xmas and shizzle. Guess i'll just see you at school.

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[daniibo]

i kno how u feel bout the wanting to get help but feeling like something is stopping you. Ive been trying to go see someone for the last year because of all the shit ive had to deal with because of my parents (ie dad tryin to kill my mum and threatning me ect ect) but whenever i get something about getting help (numbers ect)I always seem to put off actually doing anything bout it. If u ever need to talk to someone u know where i am (prob online lol) *hugs* xxx

[ocean87]

people think it's really easy to go and see someone, but for some ppl (i.e. you and me) it reallyisnt easy. im not too sure why; maybe im scared they wont be able to help, maybe i dont want drugs, maybe i want drugs so much that it scares me.

im here for you too, if you ever want someone to talk to - who can understand what you are going through.

*bug hugs*

My baby

[splintad]

You know i'm here if you need me night or day,you mean the world to me,I never want to lose you.I'd be broken,if I did.
I love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx