Escaping from fire

Is not one/two/three

Is not stop/drop/roll

There are further instructions

I cannot interpret

Just as every combination of letters

Spells cliche

Every possible move seems done

Before and not my own

Every stepping stone is vacant

But scared with footprints

The river has ceased production

Of slick new homes

To stand on

Wasn't sure how long since I last updated so I checked and wow im far behind. I feel like I start every entry like that. I'll stop. So ok here it goes ( Read more... )

Today has been a crazy one. In raft guide school I have not been feeling a whole lot of improvement but today I finally felt like, I was really turning a corner and putting everything together. In my head I always know what Im supposed to be doing but its a matter of the physical muscle memory. Rowing with your entire body not just my toothpick ( Read more... )

Living at home again is WEIRD. I am not used to it and its been a month. It's probably because I really don't like being in the city and I have just spent the last 11 days in Asheville and was loving being back and being outdoors and meeting cool people and seeing all my old wonderful people. I went back to take a Wilderness First Responder course ( Read more... )

I just took a tylenol pm for my headache so don't judge me if i sound loopy towards the end of this. Over the counter meds really knock me on my ass sometimes I guess since living in Asheville I ate pretty fresh foods and avoided coffee and sodas. So now if I have like and espresso-sized cup of coffee, I feel jacked. Its sort of awful and anxiety ( Read more... )

I ended up not taking the GRE after all. I just ended up wasting my money on the class. I was just too intimidated at the prospect of taking out a huge loan to pay for school. Im already hating paying rent and car bills and grocery bills, i could not possibly add another monetary stressor to my life. Also I have very strong feelings about education ( Read more... )

I should update more. But I have been writing almost everyday in my own personal computer journal so that counts for something. Maybe this is super obvious but it really is helping me out. Mainly I am able to recognize certain behavior patterns and now I can take steps to break them. And I have so far ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think it might be nice to live alone. For now, its almost not a choice just because it is cheaper to have roommates and less stress about bills......since that summer school session where I lived alone I had always told myself I didnt like living alone, but now I am thinking, I could do my yoga, go to work, read, write and practice ( Read more... )

I sat within a valley green ( Read more... )

A music lesson I was not prepared for ( due to lack of having a practice space) went surprisingly well. More came back then I thought, and I was able to pick up on new phrases pretty quickly. This new song that we started is called Johnson Boys and I am trying to figure out a way to upload it on here. If you google it, you get about a thousand ( Read more... )