I am all agitated. I probably shouldn't have had that Rockstar. Lately my mind is pretty agitated with out tons of caffeine. I want to run. I want to scream. I can't sit still, but I can't think enough to do anything productive. I have to go back to Jens in a bit because I am leaving early tomorrow to pick up Chris in RP and then drive to ( Read more... )

Fuck is pretty much all I have to say lately. My head is turning to crap again. I don't want to do anything but curl up in bed. I'm scared...

I just watched The Laramie Project, the movie about Matthew Shepherd. I can’t even cry it hurts so much. I don’t understand how people can be so hateful. I don’t understand how they could leave him there dying tied to that fence outside of town. Beer is not an excuse. I hate that people grow up being taught that being gay is wrong. I hate how ( Read more... )

I haven't really felt like writing since I have gotten back from DC. And I have been busy. But I wanted to vent ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is job search day... All day, me walking around trying to find a job. I'll work pretty much any where. The Open Book isn't hiring for another month or so, but I really need a job, and some money... now.

I haven't written in here in a while, so I figure I ought to. I am up in WA now, visiting my sister Sarah. She got engaged last week... It is crazy. We had dinner at my grandparents house yesterday. It was pretty fun. I was amused though. Sarah was talking about how her friend Brent is going to be one of her bridesmaids. My grandma was ( Read more... )

I ended up going to the Lambda meeting yesterday because I wanted to see Shawn, and anyone else I hadn't gotten a chance to see yet since I have come home. The meeting was pretty boring, nothing has changed, but I reconnected with some people so it was good. Afterwards we went to the Open Book, and then I thought I would stop by Amy's on the way ( Read more... )

I AM: sad ( Read more... )

So last night I went out to Club 21 with Bre, Rachel, and one of Rachel's friends. I had fun for the most part, but Rachel was being super distant... I thought when I got home things would be good between us, but ever since Sunday she has been acting really wierd around me. I guess she isn't interested anymore. Why do I let myself fall for ( Read more... )

Whitney and I went out to eat tonight after we got back from a AmeriCorps BBQ. It was along the Chesapeke bay, I thought it was going to be a real beach, but it was more like a lake. The water was absolutely disgusting. There were dead fish floating in the water. So no one really went swimming. But I guess it was fun. We each were supposed to ( Read more... )