I know what I am and I know what I'm not, yet I still don't know who I am. I love and hate everyone I know equally, maintaining an emotional balance. And yet, I find myself giving and giving and giving and never getting in return. Making others happy once brought me joy, and now I've come to realize that it brings me nothing but misery. By giving away my time, efforts, and money, I miss out on so much more because I never have time to just hang out and be with my friends. I know they're not bad people, but they take advantage of me, or else ignore me. Sometimes, I hate being in a crowded room because I get so lonely around others, yet I get even lonelier when I'm by myself. I find myself going to my room every afternoon and working all the time, making excuses when a friend asks me to hang out so that I won't have to leave. But I want to leave, dammit! I want to get out of this shell I've built around myself. But that would mean changing certain things about myself that I've been trying to change for the past five years and
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* Georgia's anti-gay bill on the ballot for November, SR595
* Volunteering at the Atlanta Pride Festival
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