Thinking....

[ocs_midnight]

So I'm sitting here just thinking about life. Yea, that seems to be what I'm doing a lot of, that and wishing things could change and that we could be together again. After a year of loving each other and caring for one another deeply she told me she didn't love me romantically anymore. I guess I just don't understand how that can be. How can you

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Josh, haven't we talked about this?

[ks4menotu]

Josh, I honestly didn't know that you felt this way. It's amazing to me that your opinions about this change so much. One day your ready to move on the next day your in love with her again. Josh we've talked about this and you've even said that at times you've felt that she's taken advatage of you.
How can you love someone for over a year and then *poof* it's gone. I guess I'm saying this to try to keep my hopes up that somewhere down deep she still does love me like that. Look at what you said. How does a TRUE love just dissapear? You even recognize the irony in that or else you wouldn't have said that. If she loved you with a true love like she said she did would it have just dissapeared Josh? I worry about you when you do this. She's not your whole life and your sure as not hers and she's made that increadably clear. Josh if you ment as much to her as she does to you don't you think she would do everything in her power to contact you even if she's busy. If I cared about someone that much I would. Josh you deserve someone who will

Okay, back again.

[ks4menotu]

Okay first of all Josh, I know I tell you what I think and most of the time you listen to it and ignore it and I am cool with it. Since your just going to read this and mostly ignore it to some extent I have some other things I need to say. I know that what I have to say is in no way going to sway your ideas because, heck well they haven't changed a thing in the past. So I am going to say the same stuff I always tell you and maybe one day they'll sink in and you'll know why I was saying this. So to start things off I am going to make a list of points I would like to make.

1. Huh...I love her so so much and with all of my heart, and I would do anything for her, but that just can't make up for the distance between us. I wish I was 18. I wish I was away from my parents at college. Do you honestly think the distance is going to change a thing? Do you think you would like her anymore and she would like you anymore is you were closer? Yes, you would be close and develope a relationship based upon more romatic aspects. Would you like that

This is probably going to be long...sorry! heh

[ma_a_salama]

yes, i have to say that i do agree with your friend on certain aspects....but seeing as i kinda am in a "situation" myself i can look at the 2 angles. i know how you might feel (as far as switching back and forth from wanting to move on and then the next wanting to be with them again) but i also understand what your friend is saying. I can't say i completely agree though, because i don't know "her" and i don't know your history together. This whole thing is reminding me of the song Scars by papa roach. That song makes me so emo. You should listen to it. To me, at one time, it was like solace in a darkened world. yeah...on to the next thing.

"How can you love someone for over a year and then *poof* it's gone."Again, i don't know her, but i'm going to try and look at it from her point of view and mesh it with my experiences. So, in no way am i saying she is right for vanishing on you, but i'm just trying to express a diff. way to look at it. #1)You're right, distance does have something to do with it. i mean if you were there you could

[ma_a_salama]

forgot to put this sorry

Response Time!

[ocs_midnight]

Ok, I'll tell you the basics about our relationship and about her, but please, bear in mind, what you'll read probably isn't what you expected and I hope it won't change your opinion of me/her or what you've said so far. Well, for one, her name is Christina, but you can just call her Tina. She lives in Escondido, California. She is 22, and I have never met her, our relationship has been long distance the whole time. Yes, I have seen pictures of her and I know she isn't a guy, and she has seen pictures of me, and yes she knows how old I am. Those are the most common questions. We started dating on December 25th 2003. I would say we officially stopped dating in Augustish of 2004, although I say officially for a number of reasons, for which I'll tell you when I call when I get back. She is half mexican half white, about 5'6"ish. And right now that's all I can think of. I can tell you more about her and our history up to this point when I get back, because trust me, its very long and complicated. ttyl tasha!

Re: Response Time!

[ma_a_salama]

wow! that actually made me feel better heh cuz the guy i met was online too and i've never met him. He's 17 and lives in the UK but i also know he's not a perverted 50 year old man cuz i've seen him on his webcam, and he's seen pics of me. so yeah, my opinion of you hasn't changed. i think it's cool that you met her on the net cuz that just makes me understand how you feel even more!

Re: Response Time!

[ocs_midnight]

yay! lol, finally, someone who isn't completely weirded out by the long distance internet relationship! So this UK guy is your "guy"? Btw wuts your phone number so when I get back I can call ya and tell you? Well, ttyl Tasha.

I am at SLS!

[ks4menotu]

Hey Josh I am just reminding you in case you forgot ,which I doubt because your one smart kiddo, that I am going to be gone at SLS starting tomorrow. I am so excited even though I am basically a guinea pig since no one's gone to the Missouri sls before. You know me though Josh, I am gonna kick some booty! Lol Jk. Josh you rock talk to you when I get back and I'll tell you all the details. It'll probably be a lot like the SLS I went to at Scott. You rock!